The Intuituve Eater

I said I wouldn't post again until I was in the 350s, but I need to vent and I realize I am not a good group weightloss person. Weightloss..has been pretty ok. From Sept to Jan I just ate whatever...got up to 375.....and i've been bobing arounf the 360s due to too much hanging out and enjoyment of food (damn you oh so lovely sushi). I got focused and then hurt my knee, but ate pretty ok while I was unable to workout on my knee.  I'm at 365 as of the beginning of April. I'm waiting for my period to be over to get on the scale again. So thats the recap...now for the vent....I am in a pretty awesome FB group, but with all things you aren't going agree with everyone.  I installed myfitnesspal to help keep a lil more honest about what i'm eating and it has been a little bit of an eye opener about how much sodium I'm taking in.  Somethings like my fried egges are alil high..but I had a  steak for the first time since Feb??? (I gave up beef for lent) and it w...

So between going from a great beach vacation to 2 weeks of jury duty I've been on plan about 60%.  Weirdly I haven't gained or lost anything I think that has more to do with me doing more weight type exercises than cardio since usually I would have gained.  Anyway..I'm slowly easing back and hoping for a nice 3-4 weight loss to get me back to the 150s.  I'm tempted to try and challenge, but I think I just want to take it one day at a time. I've been helping me ex-fiancé focus a lil more.  He's on blood pressure medication and both is parents are diabetic.  So I asked him to cut out potatoes and rice, two things he really likes...we'll see if it working.  I am going to try and eat wheatena 203 times a week to work on my cholesterol. Fall is here...which mean I'm be way more into cooking now that its cooled off.  YAY I already planned to make the paleo jambalaya for lunch next week.

So I got on the scale when 1. I was about to get my period and had gained 3 lbs...I try and make it a rule not to weigh on cheat days, immediately after, right before I get my period or during.  So I have it now...and I've been on a bit of carb binge..and I haven't worked out. I'm sort of grumpy, but its the end of the summer, Labor Day weekend and I just wanted a break.  Also I know I'll be focused once summer has come to an end. The other side to this is though...While I eat the carbs and they taste good...my body isn't happy ..and so I just then move on from it.... My period has gotten alot easier to deal with it.  Its gone from..maybe 7 days to 4...days... So I was looking at my credit card statement and realizing I eat out way too much and not just for health but for my bank account I need to stop eating out so much So tomorrow rather than working out i'm going to clean my kitchen, food shop and prep for the week.  I'm only eating mon-wed, but...

LOL once I start blogging I can't stop. So I'm in the exercise groove...I've been here before..the weight is coming off.  I'm eating right, feeling good..and then...I do too much, get frustrated and binge and then quit...sigh So I started posting on 3 fat chicks again.  I felt like I need an outlet for things I was feeling without judgement and I like reading about other people struggles so I don't feel alone.  I am avoiding any challenges and any group posts.  The posts where everyone already knows everyone so you post but no one responds because they don't really know you...blah... The reality is I don't do well on challenges and it stops becoming about weight loss and feeling good and more about "winning" nothing..because there is no actual prize.  If I win yeah..but often I "lose" and feel bad and then begins a downward spiral into feeling like a failure.  Weirdly this is also the reason I never got into counting carbs or cal...

So I haven't posted in a long time..Mostly because I just didn't want to report yet another failure.  Since my last post I've switched jobs, joined NYHRC and lost 16 lbs.  I know its not a lot..but I'm definitely proud and I'm sticking to my own weight loss plan.  Official Start date was June 16th.  I'll go into more detail later, but basically a mix of Low carb and paleo.  I think a big things has been joining the gym.  Its pricey and because of this I feel obligated to get as much use as possible out of it. They have a bunch of gym in manhattan and I take their classes.  They kick my butt, but I stick it out.  When I first started going I was intimated being the only big person I ever saw..but I feel better, I pay my dues and Eff it is people don't like it. I also think I'm becoming the annoying person who loses weight..so I'm going to blog more so I stop annoying people. Life is awesome.

So I went on vacation and some how got my mojo back...ballooned up to 364 lbs which is my highest weight. I was going to try P90X, but everything I read said I wouldn't be able to do much of it.  So I downsized to 30 day shred. I am not a Jillian Michaels fan, but I wanted to push myself and I didn't want to work out for 2 hours.  I just did level 1 of 30 day shred and...I had to stop for some of it, but I feel like I did something. I think my only annoyance is the getting on the ground..back up and down again, so I did some modifications. For pushup I did wall push up.  I wasn't even doing half of one on the ground for crunches I did standing crunches and anything I felt I could do I walked in place. So I am just trying to stick to 30 days of working out...not consecutively just 30 days of working out... Back on my paleo eating... So we'll see.  I may try and join the 3 month dietbet, but we'll see. whenever I do it, it feels extreme and coming off of i...

So this week I wanted to be lower than I started, but I gained a lb....I'm not beating myself up...I went out a couple times, drank , had fried, white castle, sugary drinks..and only gained a pound...even with going out twice I think I ate mostly paleo other than that. I need to stay away from the Chinese buffet and the French pastry spot. I made chunkey Monkey muffins (first paleo recipe) and they were awesome...no frankenfood and finally have an alternative to eggs everyday. I also made cauliflower rice  I linked the recipe, but I made it two ways.. 1. baked some chicken, and then sautéed the cauliflower in that and then just sautéed some onions and the sautéed the cauliflower in that....bother were good...for me I think I need 2-4 head to last me a whole week. I made cabbage and chicken sobrose from skinny taste. lasted the whole week...and now for what I'm making this week I think Imma try paleo pancakes, bacon salomon croquette Damn fine chic...

So Last week I was able to do no pasta or potatoes.  The past weekend was labor day weekend so I didn't worry about alcohol and just enjoyed the weekend. This morning I'm 351.  I'd like to be 350  in 5 days (basically anything lower than 351) Since I'm trying to ease myself into paleo Im adding on every week.  This week is no rice, pasta, potatoes or bread.  I'm not going to worry about sugar this week until I can figure out what to do about my coffee. Whatever happens I FEEL awesome, not sluggish or like I'm starving myself, so we'll see. I am still doing intuitive eating just with better food.

Posted on 3fc: Had a binge this weekend blah :?:  It wasn't emotional or anything.  I bought the low carb peanut butter cups and I ate the whole box (12).  I was mildly hungry, but I have been on this sugar thing lately.  Anyway, they can't come back in the house.  When it cools off I'll keep in the car.  I worked out a lil harder this morning.  Also seems since I've been working out I need to relearn hunger and not overeat. I like to work out on an empty stomach and by the time I'm done I feel like I wanna gnaw off my own leg.  I worked out, had a glass of almond milk to take the edge off while I made breakfast.  That was about 8:30. By the time I was almost to work at noon I was looking for something else.  So I picked up a danish...blah.  I packed my lunch today and dinner should be fine, but maybe I need a bigger breakfast.  I'm thinking of trying toast with breakfast on wednesday and see if that helps. To stop my add...

So yesterday I had lunch with my best friend.  She's smaller than me, but still heavy.  We went out to an Indian Buffet and I should have just ordered something from the menu, but I didn't want to spend to much since we were splitting the bill and had the buffet BAD MOVE.  It was all creamy sauce stuff which really begs to be poured over rice.  I was trying to pour it over the cauliflower dish, but that had potatoes in it.  I ended up just saying eff it and eating the cauliflower with a little potatoe.  Then my flawles logic *heavy sarcasm* said well if I'mma cheat go ahead and have the rice too.  I then had like 4 glasses of water.  I don't feel like I ate alot, the problem is I ate because of self peer pressure. I think of course wanted to punish myself and was going to make myself to a really hard workout today, but thought.  Ok I don't really want to do it...and I don't want to NOT workout because I don't want to do the work out.  ...

So I haven't really posted in a while, I find I stop when I'm  not doing so well and keep going when I'm doing great.  Well I'm in a good place.  For the first time I've managed to lose weight during the summer.  I haven't pushed myself to work out, but I have been watching what I've been eating.  I am using intuitive eating /exercise.  I haven't worked out in a while because its been too hot, but with eating better I've managed to lose.  Finally my body was like we miss working out and I had to workup ALOT of stairs since an escalator on the way to work was broken.  So, today I did 15 min of cardio with weights.  I was sweating like a slave in the fields.  I'm a lil grumpy that in about a month I lost so much ...endurance..but its a process and I'll be back at it. I'm currently PMSing which means my period is coming.  The cravings are over (blah at falling off for donuts), but i have about 7 days where I really won't be losing an...

Well my modified version of the 28 day diet seems to have helped me break through into the 330s.  i'm 335 this morning.  My modification is basically atkins induction and I allow some sweets every now and again. I am trying to stick to working out 3 days a week, but it hasn't been happened.  I usually fall off one day a week.  The upside is my workouts are harder so am going more when I do work out. My 28 days ends Aug 6th, so my very hesitant goal is to get into the 320s by then...take a break for a week and the back for another 28 days.  My summer goal was 330.  I'm going to change that to 320 by the monday after memorial day. Something else while I am low carbing it.  I am using Ie for the stuff I technically cant eat on the phase and it has been working.  I'm not down as much as everyone else (they're average is about 10 lbs in a week, i'm at 5), but I'm happier and it seems like something I can maintain. I also went back to the IE gro...

Wow so I haven't posted since january....alot has happened. Short story I ended up making friends with someone on facebook who had a weight loss group and I think this was the last piece I needed to get things in gear. Im currently doing a mix of intuitive eating and low carb (no pasta, potatoes or rice).  I'm down to 340...should be in the 330s next week. I think the last time i was in this place I wasn't as flexible, but I'm honestly trying to do this for life so..its working.  I'm going to try out a modified version of the 28 day diet.  I kinda wanna focus a but more on what i'm eating and take out some of the choices.  I'm going try it for 10-14 days and see where i am. Its summer so Im not working out, but my eating is on point so YAY me.

So I just looked at my bloog and realized I've been doing this for 5 years.  Hopefully this is the year I hit 299.  I didn't want to post till i was sure I was firmly back on the wagon.  I am not nearly as focused as I was my real first time around, but I am doing it and it seems to be working. So I am doin to 351.  I avoid potatoes, rice and pasta.  I had an issue where my stoool was WAYYYYYY to hard so I have an apple every other day to work that out.  I doing mostly IE...which makes me happy.  working out and just being ok.

This is a quickie, short story.... Got back with my ex, it sucked broke up, got over it.  planning a trip to london with a day trip to paris.  champs de elysee (sp) has 238 steps, realized I was going to need to get in some kind of shape for this trip. and here i am not really counting anything just getting back into the habit of eating better and working out. Cardio and weights. trip is in 2 and a half months so I have some time.

So as you can probably guess last month was a wash.  The ex came to stay and i stopped working out.  I did try and watched what i eat.  Hoping I maintained, but we'll see. 40 min exercise. Update So I got on the scale to see what kind od damage I did and 353.  Yes I want to be lower, but SOOOOO happy.  So watching what i eat actually worked.  In a good place. 

Well the ex worked out with me and I wanted to go a little harder Cardio Overdrive 32 min peak 10 cardio strength 52 min

20 min jackie warner circuit 27 min cardio inferno

Did peak 10 cardio strengh 40 min...more later

I didn't make a whole lot of rules, and I doubt I go back to 3fatchicks anytime soon.  The site is wonderful, but i get obsessed reading about everyone elses obsessions.  Got on the scale and was 354 so that was good and did 500 calorie burn workout.  I did 50 min of it.  I was just worn out, but i liked it alot more than I thought. I moves quickly and while its hard most of it is low impact or has a good modification. So the only rules I have now is no eating out (appelbees, fridays, popeyes, baja fresh). I have eaten "out" but I'm trying to stick to little or no carbs and organic when possible.  No watching my sodium, water, sugar carb intake.  Just living.