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Sometimes a Little is Alot





Today was the first time in a while I didn't workout and it wasn't scheduled. I just felt defeated.  The crappy thing is, it's my fault.

It's the eating out.  Even when I stay on plan it's the eating out. Even with working out like crazy the eating out is killing me.

I haven't even had a binge, nothing..but clearly it isn't my friend.  The only good thing is I"m not in the 360s. I think I would have a really good ugly cry if I had gotten back up that high.  One footnote to this is, I need to stop getting on the scale.  If I had waited till yesterday I wouldn't be so high I think, we'll see.

Here's what happened

Friday was my cheat day and I had a chocolate parfiat.

Saturday I went out with a friend 2 beers 2 mixed drinks,  We were hungry so food at fridays I eat some of the bread on my burger, no side

Sunday Friend is still here and I don't cook I had macaroni and cheese

Monday  Friend still here I have 2 quesedilla appetizers  at Fridays because I haven't eaten all day

Wednesday a bowl of broccoli and cheddar soup and half the bread from my sandwich from panera.

Before I typed that out, I was like how could this happen, but seeing it written down.  They are alot of little cheats. The bread and macaroni are banned, so yeah that sucks. I also know it take about 2 days to deal with a cheat and I might still be feeling the fallout from that.  The damage could have been much worse.  So no official cheat day. No Scale till Saturday 8/12

I weighed in at 355 Friday and Thursday I'm 359, so yeah it's me.

Goal for the next 7 days is no eating out. Actually no banned food.  I'm going away for the weekend so eating out is gonna happen, but no banneded foods.

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