The Intuituve Eater

Back from Miami. I have come to realize women are awesome and can form great bonds, but they can also be full of drama for no reason.  I had a great time and definitely want to go back. The "rules" for my trip away were no pasta, rice or potoatoes.  I think I had rice or potatoes with most of my meals.  I didn't go overboard, no binging or huge portions.  Then there was the drinking.  I haven't really drank in a while...so I didn't go overboard, but I drank my fair share. Drinks at Wet Willies in Miami My ankles were not the biggest I've seen, but definitely swollen.  I decided when I got back no scale.  I don't need that kind of negativity in my life. When I got back it was a struggle to get up and workout.  It almost felt like the first couple of weeks. Also doing things that had gotten easier felt like a big of a struggle. Tuesday I got on the scale and I was 359.0.  I am stupidly happy I was in the 350s.  I'm als...

So it's taken me 2 months to lose 4 lbs.  I know people are are gonna ready that and be like dude you suck. There are a couple of things to note: When  I started 2 months ago I was 359 and then the week after I went up to 363. I checked my spreadsheet and I haven't been 355 or lower in 4 years.  I've been struggling in the 360s for YEARS !!!!!! I've been in the 350s for a couple of weeks with a mostly steady decline I'm not struggling with eating, and working out is doable. In terms of non scale victories.  I can eat salad. It isn't the end of the world and honestly when I'm out and about it takes the weight of having to figure out what to eat. I don't feel the need to eat EVERYTHING on my plate. I don't eat what I don't want.  ( We will ignore the cream puff I had yesterday) I have more energy.  I don't come home and veg doing nothing until bed time.  I mean I do it sometimes, but if I need to do something I am more lik...

I think I just posted yesterday, but it's been an interesting 24 hours. Pre current weightloss journey I would come home tired, chores and other things waited until I the weekend.  I would rest (procrastinate saturday) and then sunday try and get some stuff done and really not much would happen and that would be it. Last night I ran errands, did laundry.  The night before I moved the refrigerator because something had spilled and attacked gnats.  A couple of months ago...none of that would have happened.  I'm gonna claim that as a NSV Today was my first doctor's visit in maybe 2 years.  I was always putting it off thinking I know the Dr is going to tell me to lose weight, so I'll just wait and lose weight first.  Just so we're clear that's not how that works.  GO TO THE DOCTOR.  My big questions are do I have high blood pressure and am I diabetic. My blood pressure is 140/82.  For me that's high, but there might be another r...

So this week while getting dressed for work I noticed my bra fit better.  I mean I didn't suddenly have perky boobs.  In fact I've never had perky boobs, not even at the point where I was young and perky boobs were supposed to be a thing.  I digress.   Anyway, there was a little less boobs and I didn't get the extra baby boob poke up.  If you have big boobs you know what I mean.  I could wear my pants over both of my belly rolls.  Usually I have to  put it between them because otherwise I can't bend over or sit comfortably.  I have been cleaning my house at night.  Nothing major, but instead of collapsing and feeling tired I actually have some energy when I get home.  Last night it was moving my refrigerator to clean up a spill that was attracting gnats.  I think I'm sleeping better.  I feel more rested.   Working out is becoming less of a chore and more of a habit that I just have to do it. ...

Down 2.5 lbs. I didn't do anything more than I have been, but it's less stressful and maybe I'm less prone to feel like I want a cheat meal or I want something off my plan. No workout today. I ended up baking some chicken  before it went bad.  I think I'll freeze it for next week. So I had a bit of a falling out with the guy I'm half in love with.  We're not a couple and never will be, but we are something...blah.  Anyway, I was all emotional since I thought he wasn't speaking to me and I started thinking about going out to eat and having my version of comfort food (sushi).  I didn't mostly because work was hectic and by the time I got out I just wanted to go home.  I will say there was a relazation that I'm only wanting to go out to eat to comfort myself with food. I watched a season of the biggest loser while I was doing dietbet and one of the things they focus on was, how did you get this big?  What habits do you have that stop you fr...

 One of my favorite movies, no idea why. I'm a grown woman and I love it.  I'm afraid I'll lose motivation and fall off the wagon and be back where I was, so Im considering another dietbet.  The other side is if I lost it might cause me to fall off. Blah...not sure what to do On the other side of life I had a Scale and non scale victory. I had oreos (6) yesterday and my ankles seemed like they were swollen which usually means a gain, but I didn't my usual after friday cheat and I did a fitness glo strength workout.  I didn't finish it, I wasn't in the mood for the floor work. Anyway, I assumed I had gained..nope down to 360.6. I think I'll wait till after this week to see how I feel about dietbet. I think I'm hanging out 3 days in a row.  Keeping my fingers crossed I had a realization about fitness glow.  I tried to do a level 3 workout and it wasn't horrible, but I felt like I had to modify too much.  I realized they don't have ...

I can zip up my boots It may not seem like a big deal, but this time last year I couldn't wear these because my feet, ankles and lower leg were so swollen the zipper wouldn't go up.  I grabbed them not really realizing until I did the first ziper with no issues.

As always lets start with the bad so I can finish on a good note. Eating has been crap.  I went to two afterwork events, I was moderate, but there were carbs....lovely delicious carbs..... Anyway, I decided to do a fake weigh in today.  A fake weigh in is weighing in the morning AFTER I do my workout.  I was 363, so I'm probably 364 or 365.  My ankles are still swollen from my period AND I'm sure the carbs aren't helping. Next week is another round of hanging out and eating with friends. The week after that I go away for a week.  All this mean is my diet is going to blah until august.  I am going to take it one day at a time and try and make good choices. The good.  I am going on a boat ride tomorrow and since I want to be able to function and make sure I get all my works outs in I doubled up...   I did cardio fix and dirty 30.  I was sort of dreading it since of all the 21DF workouts cardio fix is the one I like the least,...

I actually wasn't intending to blog, but I think I needed to vent a little so here I am.  First the bad, my period started monday and while I haven't had a repeat of death by donut I've had a few cheats (frozen yogurt, 2 mojitos, 2 hot dogs, 1 beer) This isn't in one sitting but over the course of this week.  I didn't really overeat just ate thing I shouldn't have. I haven't weighed myself because I wasn't interested in the emotional rollarcoaster that would have been, but my ankles are currently the size of grapefruit...blah.  When Aunt flo has officially left time I'll weigh a day or so after that  The question is usually after my period if over there is a 3-5 lbs loss, but I've been cheating so there is the potential for a gain. The good..I'm sticking to the 21 day Fix.  I did a warm up and cool down I found on youtube because I was tired of the one Autumn did EVERYDAY.  That being said I'm really loving 21DF.  Next week i...

So I put the air conditioner in last night and no problems getting up. My electric bill is going to be interesting at the end of the month, but its worth it. So last day of the month.  There were alot of ups and down, but my belief is this is a journey and you learn from the sucky moments just as well and the awesome ones. Last scale reading for the month was 359. What did I learn: -I can go out and have a drink. A drink, and wine is better than beer.  I will see a bump up on the scale, but as long as I go right back to eating on plan and working out it is really just a blip and not much to worry about -I do better when I bring lunch to work.   I can stay on plan without, but its will help me and my pocketbook -Being consistent yields results.  I've been doing pilates for a month and I can plank for 25 seconds. I have my knees on the ground, but hey I'll take it. -If I'm avoiding working out, change my workout.  I have been planning to do The Firm:...

That is an exact recreation of me...or my inner me.  I'm not sure what happened.  Its too early for PMS, but I have been on my on sugar binge for the last couple of days.  I am usually not much of a sweet person, but it has been an issue. Sunday I have 4 of the tiny hagen daz ice cream.  It amounts to about a scoop of ice cream when you add them all together.  Today I had another sugar craving and had two pack of cookies.  Add on to that I didn't work out. My house was hot and I turn into a big ole slug when its hot. I also didn't cook... I am currently not wining. I'm down overall for the month so I haven't done much damage, but I need to focus.  I joined the June exercise challenge on 3FC and I have one last pilates session to do.  I also didn't workout over the weekend.. I"m not winning SMH So I'll knock that out tomorrow morning Fingers crossed the craving goes away and I'll be sleep with the A/C on tonight. On the u...

So yesterday I was tired of egg white omelets so decided it was going to be cheat day.  I had 3 donuts... which is way more than I should have...so I'll need to work on that.  I avoided the pizza at a dept meeting YAYYY NSV...and I had a salad. Went out with a friend to take a spin in my new car and had a hamburger. Really none of that is really horrible except my death by donuts.  I woke up meh today.   Kinda sluggish, feeling a little bloated. It might be just the end of the week or it might have been the carbs or a combination.  We'll see, but My final weigh in for the month is Tuesday and since I am fresh off my cheat day should be smooth sailing Even though I wasn't motivated I've learned I should go more than 2 days without working out.  Also I have 2 more days of Pilates to complete my exercise challenge for the month.  I ended up doing Leslie Sansone you can do pilates.  Its short and I always end up feeling better after...

So I promised myself I wouldn't post until I was in the 350s.  this time I started in the 370s (blah)  I hit 358 this last weekend, but I waited and I haven't shot up.my final weigh in for the month is Tuesday so I should be fine.   So I usually blog fall off and then am annoyed with myself.  This time I really made myself accountable. I've been wanting to blog, but I made it a reward and feeling awesome. This is a quickie post, just happy I made it. My other reward was buying something and I chose the 21 day fix.  I'm learning I can't do the same workout over and over again or I"ll get bored and stop.  Also it was nice to buy it knowing I had earned it. Meal plan is modified slow carb and I workout in the morning 3-4 days a week.  I have a fitbit, but after the initial motivation,  I'm not a walker and it isn't something I can do long term for exercise. So yeah I'm back.  358. which isn't great, but on my way down...

So I got on the scale when 1. I was about to get my period and had gained 3 lbs...I try and make it a rule not to weigh on cheat days, immediately after, right before I get my period or during.  So I have it now...and I've been on a bit of carb binge..and I haven't worked out. I'm sort of grumpy, but its the end of the summer, Labor Day weekend and I just wanted a break.  Also I know I'll be focused once summer has come to an end. The other side to this is though...While I eat the carbs and they taste good...my body isn't happy ..and so I just then move on from it.... My period has gotten alot easier to deal with it.  Its gone from..maybe 7 days to 4...days... So I was looking at my credit card statement and realizing I eat out way too much and not just for health but for my bank account I need to stop eating out so much So tomorrow rather than working out i'm going to clean my kitchen, food shop and prep for the week.  I'm only eating mon-wed, but...

So I haven't posted in a long time..Mostly because I just didn't want to report yet another failure.  Since my last post I've switched jobs, joined NYHRC and lost 16 lbs.  I know its not a lot..but I'm definitely proud and I'm sticking to my own weight loss plan.  Official Start date was June 16th.  I'll go into more detail later, but basically a mix of Low carb and paleo.  I think a big things has been joining the gym.  Its pricey and because of this I feel obligated to get as much use as possible out of it. They have a bunch of gym in manhattan and I take their classes.  They kick my butt, but I stick it out.  When I first started going I was intimated being the only big person I ever saw..but I feel better, I pay my dues and Eff it is people don't like it. I also think I'm becoming the annoying person who loses weight..so I'm going to blog more so I stop annoying people. Life is awesome.

So yesterday I had lunch with my best friend.  She's smaller than me, but still heavy.  We went out to an Indian Buffet and I should have just ordered something from the menu, but I didn't want to spend to much since we were splitting the bill and had the buffet BAD MOVE.  It was all creamy sauce stuff which really begs to be poured over rice.  I was trying to pour it over the cauliflower dish, but that had potatoes in it.  I ended up just saying eff it and eating the cauliflower with a little potatoe.  Then my flawles logic *heavy sarcasm* said well if I'mma cheat go ahead and have the rice too.  I then had like 4 glasses of water.  I don't feel like I ate alot, the problem is I ate because of self peer pressure. I think of course wanted to punish myself and was going to make myself to a really hard workout today, but thought.  Ok I don't really want to do it...and I don't want to NOT workout because I don't want to do the work out.  ...

not sure what happened, but I don't have a post for monday...anyway, as of rightnow I'm up to 191 min Monday I did abs with chris 12 min, cardio inferno and kendal strength. Today I do 29 min Kendal, 8 min abs with chris (no warm up this time) and strength with Kendall(38 min) I haven't been on the scale and not really pressed. not sure I'll ever go back to weekly weigh ins again.  Eating is ok. I went out to lunch yesterday.  Ikept thinking ok I need to find something I should be eating, but what ends up happening is I'm not happy and feel like I wasted the eating out.  So I got what I wanted a hamburger, with bacon and instead of fries I got salad and only used half the salad dressing and I was happy.  My girlfriend did the usually you can eat whatever off my plate a few times and I said no thanks and wasn't pressed about it. The ex and I had another talk and I'm not happy, but rather than sprial into bad eating and not exercising I gotup and didn...

So I haven't posted in a bit, but I've stayed the course.  I hit my exercise goal kind of early so I kinda of slacked off. I'm back at it this week primarily because of my work out buddy at work.  She mentioned we were supposed to work out and that got me back into the swing of things.  I was thinking I should tell her I don't want to work out anymore, but seems to be a good way to make me accountable.  I've been tracking my calories half heartedly, well mostly carbs and sodium and how much water I am drinking.  My ankles swelled up which surprised me, but I think it was due to my TOM.  I also didn't get on the scale because emotionally I just couldn't deal with seeing the scale go up.  Today was interesting I left my lunch at home and thought oh I can order something now, but I ended up running to a supermarket and picking up a smart one. Which leads me to an article on who the obesity epidemic is caused by ultra processed foods, which I totally b...

So I haven't worked out since wednesday and its because friday I got on the scale and it went down. Also just because it was friday.  Since it was friday, I didn't pack a lunch, ate at the whole foods buffet, went out to dinner, ate too much and generally did everything possible to screw up my one pound loss.  Rather than learn from that I then spent saturday not eat anything good for me and eating when I was distinctly not hungry. BLAH !!! I managed to stop myself and today (Sunday) I got up worked out (80min) and sweated my butt off.  I had a nice healthy vegetable omelette.  I'm full and I won't be eating anything else till I'm hungry again. When I went to work out I think I was trying to punish myself so I did a workout, I usually hate, but today seemed not so horrible.  I think its because I'm in better shape when I first started.  I actually for down and did the floor portion for the first time and since i can't do a pushup I did a 30 sec plank ...

So yesterday I didn't workout at all.  I was ok with it.  I also decided since i cook just about all my regular meals I am ok buying breakfast tue and thur on my early days at work.  Work was unremarkable(you can see I building to something here.) I went out with my girlfriend and we ended up at dinner.  I ordered the sauteed chicken, with vegetables and there was a boiled potatoe.  I had half a margarita and NO CHIPS, not one.  I picked up one during dinner to help push some food onto my fork, but I put it down thinking why have even the one.  I used my finger.  Usually I would have demolished the bowl of chips in its entirety. Usually with this same girlfriend she eat a little bit of something and then offers me whats left and I graze off her plate(blah @human garbage can).  I didn't touch any of her stuff.  I was mildly curious, and it helped that she had ordered paella and I can't eat shrimp, but i resisted trying it out to see if...