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Finding Joy in the Little Changes





So it's taken me 2 months to lose 4 lbs.  I know people are are gonna ready that and be like dude you suck. There are a couple of things to note:

When  I started 2 months ago I was 359 and then the week after I went up to 363.

I checked my spreadsheet and I haven't been 355 or lower in 4 years.  I've been struggling in the 360s for YEARS !!!!!!

I've been in the 350s for a couple of weeks with a mostly steady decline

I'm not struggling with eating, and working out is doable.

In terms of non scale victories.  I can eat salad. It isn't the end of the world and honestly when I'm out and about it takes the weight of having to figure out what to eat.

I don't feel the need to eat EVERYTHING on my plate.

I don't eat what I don't want.  ( We will ignore the cream puff I had yesterday)

I have more energy.  I don't come home and veg doing nothing until bed time.  I mean I do it sometimes, but if I need to do something I am more likely to do it than procrastinate.

I started doing butterfly crunches to work my abs.  I have no idea why but I love them, weird since I absolutely hate regular crunches or sit ups. I started with 10, which the last one being a struggle.  I managed to do 12 with the last one being a struggle.  This was after my normal strength workout. I couldn't stop grinning.


So things are chugging along.  Do I wish I was down more of course, but the fact this is doable, and I can do it indefinitely (rest of my life) is making me happy the scale will get there/




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