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2 month in/ Prepping for Vacation



2 months in and I'm only 4 lbs lost.... Sort of.....After my first week I gained 4 lbs because of cheating. I'm down 8-9  since then and I am pretty happy with my situation.

Eating is pretty stable except for cheat day/s.  Those are a work in progress.

Working out...isn't a struggle, but I can't say I'm into it, but it's doable.  They key seems to be doing workouts I like.  I know that sounds silly.  Alot of times I feel like we're supposed to force ourselves to do something for our health or weightloss.  I've noticed I'll start talking myself out of a workout when it is something I really don't want to do.  A good example is I'm not a fan of HIIT, or overly chatty instructors, or when the group is acting like its a dinner party rather than a workout.  I also don't like anything over 45 min.  That's my limit.  It doesn't matter how awesome it, I'll get annoyed or tired and not be interested.  I do cardio because I have to, but I prefer it with a weight and low impact.  Cardio Inferno, by The firm is my go to favorite.

I've had a few days where things could have good really bad due to emotional eating and I've managed to stop it. Weirdly I can stop it because of the scale.....

Officially I weigh myself once a week, unofficially I weight in probably everday.  At first it was because I wanted to see the weight hurry up and come off.  I had to stop that mindset because I was heading to bad dieting and just being frustrated.  Now it actually helps tell me if I'm on track, how much a cheat has affected(?) me. I learned from the day I cheat it takes my body 2 days to get back on track.  I might actually see a loss the first day after, but that is probably the loss I would have had if I hadn't cheated. It hasn't stopped anything, but it helps me realize that I could be losing more weight.  The other side is the cheat days are actually helping me stay consistent.

Before I would stay on plan indefinitely until I had a urge.  Sometimes I could a little of something and be ok, but sometimes it would be a snowball that turned into a avalanche and I would fall off the wagon.  One day where I can have sugar means the other days I focus and there is no big fall.  Could I have lost more weight...of course, but I am pretty happy with the consist weighloss even as small as it has been.

Recently I have had to stop myself from comparing my journey to others.  I see on youtube how I lost 120 lbs in one year or how I like 50 lbs in 2 month, I workout 6 days a week for 2 hours each day.  Those people aren't me and honestly I've tried the losing 10 lbs a month or working out way more than I do now and it wasn't sustainable for me.  I work out 3-4 days a week and 1 weekend day.

I do think once issue is believing it will work this time.  I think getting out of the 350s will be a big deal for me.  I haven't been in thr 340s in 4 years....

On to the next thing I go away on a short vacation (Friday to Monday).  My issue is I don't wanna eff up my progress.  I would have extreme sad face if I some how come back 5-10 lbs heavier.  I'm not sure if I should make rules, wing or what.  Since I couldn't come to a definitive plan I'm going to take baby steps and I"m gonna try and video blog it. 😖😖


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