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A day of non scale victories

So yesterday I didn't workout at all.  I was ok with it.  I also decided since i cook just about all my regular meals I am ok buying breakfast tue and thur on my early days at work.  Work was unremarkable(you can see I building to something here.) I went out with my girlfriend and we ended up at dinner.  I ordered the sauteed chicken, with vegetables and there was a boiled potatoe.  I had half a margarita and NO CHIPS, not one.  I picked up one during dinner to help push some food onto my fork, but I put it down thinking why have even the one.  I used my finger.  Usually I would have demolished the bowl of chips in its entirety.


Usually with this same girlfriend she eat a little bit of something and then offers me whats left and I graze off her plate(blah @human garbage can).  I didn't touch any of her stuff.  I was mildly curious, and it helped that she had ordered paella and I can't eat shrimp, but i resisted trying it out to see if I could eat some of it.

my ex was late coming in last night and didn't bother to call or pick up the phone. I HATE lateness.  When he finally got in at 2am I couldn't sleep and got up after tossing and turning for an hour.  I kept thinking I feel like i'm hungry.  So I got up and read 3fc for about an hour.  I just kept refreshing the list of new posts and read.  At the end of the hour I decided while my stomach was empty  I wasn't actually hungry.  When to bed at 4am.  I didn't workout and I had some cheese and 2 sausages with my egg white omlette, and it is comfort food.  but it comfort food for a meal I am hungry for and it isn't the ice cream and sweets or hi cal stuff I would normally have eaten.

I'm going to walk to and from the bus today so that should give me a bit of excercise.  I might do it during lunch..we'll see.

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