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What we're not gonna do



I think I just posted yesterday, but it's been an interesting 24 hours. Pre current weightloss journey I would come home tired, chores and other things waited until I the weekend.  I would rest (procrastinate saturday) and then sunday try and get some stuff done and really not much would happen and that would be it.

Last night I ran errands, did laundry.  The night before I moved the refrigerator because something had spilled and attacked gnats.  A couple of months ago...none of that would have happened.  I'm gonna claim that as a NSV


Today was my first doctor's visit in maybe 2 years.  I was always putting it off thinking I know the Dr is going to tell me to lose weight, so I'll just wait and lose weight first.  Just so we're clear that's not how that works.  GO TO THE DOCTOR.  My big questions are do I have high blood pressure and am I diabetic. My blood pressure is 140/82.  For me that's high, but there might be another reason for that.  I'll come to that later.

The rest of the visit was uneventful, I'll get the other results and we'll see how it goes. I'm already on the way to doing better so not really worried.

So one of my issues has been breakfast especially on workout days.  I am TIRED  of eggs and with not many other options I've been overdoing it on sausage and bacon.  I'm expecting my cholesterol to be high, but its correctable. I also think my swollen ankles are due to salt. -

I'm gonna try paleo muffins on workout days...maybe just one?  Blah we'll see it's a process.  Since I got on the scale today I'm 357.6.  I wish it was more, but its less than what i was so I'll take it.

 My cheat day was today. I had popeyes, no side, no sugary drink, no biscuit. The goal is to not have another cheat for 10 days.

So the title of this blog post. I was telling my coworkers about my issues with carbs and my coworker says you know nothing, do yoga and eat this and it will all go away. I find if you want to make suggestions about what I should eat great..but you don't now my life.  Who are you to tell me how I should do things?  I just hate the judgement and in the past it would drive me to eat and feel bad about myself...but dude I'm not that chick anymore.  So I ignored it, but it still irks my soul

Anyway...its been interesting.

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