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About 3-4 months ago I was toying with the idea of having weight loss surgery.  No one was recommending it, but I felt like I was having weight creep and maybe I should use a tool to help me.  I spoke to a good friend who pointed out I would still have to modify my eating and exercise.  Why not give it a try without the surgery.  He became my accountability partner.  The thing that different is he doesn't judge. He's thin and fit, but doesn't try and push me, if I slack off there isn't OMG you didn't work out guilt trip, and maybe because of that I'm more focused on making it happen.  I've fallen on the wagon, but I "confess" and move on.  It has helped alot.  I try and send him my planned workout and try and complete it during the week.  It's been something I needed.  I've tried other things. Having a one on one person who might not be in my shoes, but is there with a shoulder if needed has been a bit of a game changer.

Finding a diet I could live with.  In the past I would try and stick to a strict way of eating (usually low carb) indefinitely and then fall of the wagon in a big way and then get back  on.  For me, the answer was slow carb dieting.  I low carb for 6 days a week and on the 7th day I have a cheat meal/day.  The additional thing I've learned is if I want to show real progress I can't have rice, potatoes, pasta or alcohol on my cheat day. They are reserved for special occasions.  I had a serious sushi habit I have had to give up.  I would lose say 5 lbs, gain 3-4 from my cheat meal.  When I tweeked things I did alot better.  This is only the second week, but I can feel the difference.  Alot of people feel like cheat days slow your progress, but I find it helps keep me focused during the week and Cheat day hasn't really turned into a huge binge.  I usually crave some kind of sugar and once thats satisfied I don't really have a desire for much else.


Workouts I like and doing them in moderation. Supposedly what you eat will lead to more weight loss than working out, or something like that.  For me, I need to work out to really show progress and to keep from starving myself. Before I felt like I had to do cardio and jump and down and push up and other stuff.  Know I tend to stick to low impact cardio and weight workouts.  I am not a fan of HIIT.  I might do some tabata...but feel like meh. My workouts change constantly. I have exercise ADHD.  So far it's been ok, and I've been motivated


So why am I blogging again. I started posting on instagram. Part of it was a sort of accountability I post my sweaty workout pictures.  Part of it was the find other people like me.  I used to love 3fatchicks...but eh...I wanted something different and I wanted to trach my journey.


Instagram is ok, but I have more that I want to say and I guess I want it to be public.  I think I'll give this a month and then add the link to my IG

The other thing is, I would rather start and stop then just give up.  Imagin all the weght I had lost I never did.  So I'm back...even if I maintain, I'm in a better place.

Anyway I'm back



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