LOL once I start blogging I can't stop.
So I'm in the exercise groove...I've been here before..the weight is coming off. I'm eating right, feeling good..and then...I do too much, get frustrated and binge and then quit...sigh
So I started posting on 3 fat chicks again. I felt like I need an outlet for things I was feeling without judgement and I like reading about other people struggles so I don't feel alone. I am avoiding any challenges and any group posts. The posts where everyone already knows everyone so you post but no one responds because they don't really know you...blah...
The reality is I don't do well on challenges and it stops becoming about weight loss and feeling good and more about "winning" nothing..because there is no actual prize. If I win yeah..but often I "lose" and feel bad and then begins a downward spiral into feeling like a failure. Weirdly this is also the reason I never got into counting carbs or calories. It became this weird competition and if I went over...I was sad is my pants...
So that brings me to getting a fitbit. Right now the only thing I track is my weight on the scale. As time goes by I'm not so much worried about the number. I mean obviously I want the number to go down, but the scale is my checkin to say ok are you eating right...I know I have a weigh in do I really want that second mojito?
The fitbit feel like dietbet on my wrist. (dietbet was another thing I failed at multiple times) ...I kinda of want it as another measure to see how I'm doing, but I can just imaging the guilt or failure if I don't measure up....blah so I guess that's a no to a fitbit.
I feel like a solid workable long term plan for weight loss. I don't want to rock the boat. My first mini goal is 330-325. That's the weight were clothes are too big, I can wear heels, and walking and stairs is pretty easy.
Unrelated 4 lbs until I hit my first 20lb mark..but I'm ok as long as I'm the same or lower...I would love to lose it, but no more pressure myself to lose whatever to hit a number so I can "win"
So I'm in the exercise groove...I've been here before..the weight is coming off. I'm eating right, feeling good..and then...I do too much, get frustrated and binge and then quit...sigh
So I started posting on 3 fat chicks again. I felt like I need an outlet for things I was feeling without judgement and I like reading about other people struggles so I don't feel alone. I am avoiding any challenges and any group posts. The posts where everyone already knows everyone so you post but no one responds because they don't really know you...blah...
The reality is I don't do well on challenges and it stops becoming about weight loss and feeling good and more about "winning" nothing..because there is no actual prize. If I win yeah..but often I "lose" and feel bad and then begins a downward spiral into feeling like a failure. Weirdly this is also the reason I never got into counting carbs or calories. It became this weird competition and if I went over...I was sad is my pants...
So that brings me to getting a fitbit. Right now the only thing I track is my weight on the scale. As time goes by I'm not so much worried about the number. I mean obviously I want the number to go down, but the scale is my checkin to say ok are you eating right...I know I have a weigh in do I really want that second mojito?
The fitbit feel like dietbet on my wrist. (dietbet was another thing I failed at multiple times) ...I kinda of want it as another measure to see how I'm doing, but I can just imaging the guilt or failure if I don't measure up....blah so I guess that's a no to a fitbit.
I feel like a solid workable long term plan for weight loss. I don't want to rock the boat. My first mini goal is 330-325. That's the weight were clothes are too big, I can wear heels, and walking and stairs is pretty easy.
Unrelated 4 lbs until I hit my first 20lb mark..but I'm ok as long as I'm the same or lower...I would love to lose it, but no more pressure myself to lose whatever to hit a number so I can "win"
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