The Intuituve Eater

So I was looking for distraction from the vending machine monster and I found a 100 calorie snack ( i need to start carrying those again) and realized I was 312 lbs back in April. :-(, but I think the good thing is I am back at 312 and will soon be lower. I also learned spring and summer are bad times for me and I need to learn to modify my exercise plan during the summer. I think I felt like if I didn't feel like working out I couldn't do anything. I should have done maybe 30 min or something...We'll see I also noticed I am slightly scale obsessed, but like I posted before the scale has been who I judge myself and right now I WANT to be under 300lbs. So between the 100 cal snack and reading 3fc and the blog I am ok. Now home to a bowl full of mixed vegetables ( lol and I am actually looking forward to it)

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So Part of my IE is staying under 2000 calories. usually I do this without thinking about it..I think it is a hold over from my dieting days and it works, so I keep it around. So anyway. It occured to me, that there are people in countries who are so called "less advanced" than the US and they are thinner and healthier than us and they have no idea what a calorie is, how many carbs they are eating or any of other many measurements we have around. I was also thinking that there was a time in this country when people had no idea what a calories was and there didn't seem to be an obesity epidemic until we got all educated....

Sometimes I need to be reminded that the all mighty scale should not be the end all and be all of everything. I have been trying to get to under 300 for a while, and when I focused I was slowling heading down from 318 316 314 312.....then i got on one day after visiting my parents and I was 320....I said f*ck it said I am taking a break and i am not getting on the scale for a while...Well I had my period at the time....So a week later yesterday in fact. I got on and I was 312...no nothing magical happened, but i stuck to my IE, exercised (although i skipped 2 days) and I had dropped what I am guessing is water weight. So I am back on track and happy I didn't beat myself up and binge or anything

Note: I started a 21 day challenge to help me get in the right mind set and stop me from blindly eating stuff and really think about what I put in my mouth. So No Donuts, no pause days. (i just can't be trusted) No eating out for lunch at work 3 pause days. No vending machine at work no pause days. Under 2000 Calories 2 pause days. So I am Day 3 of everything and I am pretty sure I am going to have to use a pause day for under 2000 calories since I am at 1740 and still need to eat dinner, but we'll see So I was on my way to the vending machine, had stuck the money in and was about to select my usual treat when I thought hey....something isn't right. I remembered i had joined the challenge and I was going to have to post here that I didn't do so well early on. So I pushed the change button and walked away. I still want something, but I think it is just a a habit and I am not going to give in. I am off to suck down some water. Even after I walked away the vending machin

Well I am ashamed it has been this long since I posted. I got down to 306 after much not eating and too much exercising, but after the trip to Jamaica I haven't gotten back in the groove of things. I think alot of that has to do with issues with the Ex. Those may not be settled, but i am not as emotionally invested as I won't was. With IE I was able to stay at 320 or under. I am 312 now, and focused once again. I am not nearly as strict as I was, which might also explain why I haven't gotten under 300. Anyway....Thats where I am at now. Will try and write more later.

Well this is my first post in 2 months. As of 6/15 I am down to 312 lbs, which is with in spitting distance of getting out of the teens. I think I am a 26 (tight 24). Which means, shopping has gotten a whole lot more interesting. This is one of the dresses I am looking at. It is at macy's and it is a 24. My ex's mother is getting married and I am using that as incentive to keep going. For the last 10 years I think. I have been only been able to shop at 3 stores and in the last 5 i had to buy my jeans at roamans.com. It isn't that the scale ISN'T motivating. Its just that after a while I am desensitized to it and isn't enough motivation to get me out of bed. So today I looked at this dress know that I would order it about august 15 and hoping I am a solid 24 (tight) 22 by then. I did kind of cheat and order my swimsuits in 24, but thats because they are stretch and I have noticed anything I have in a 26 is loose. So, I should be ok Me and the ex are ok.

6/23/2007 Hey everyone, well something interesting happened. I mentioned I took "break" from all things weight loss related, no exercise and no calorie counting, but I did kind of stick to my IE. It was more unconscious than anything. SO I decided to weight myself so how much I had gained and I lost 6 lbs in about a week. I feel almost like a science experiment. I honestly think is was a combination of IE and the weights I had been doing. Anyway, trip to Jamaica is in less than a month and I start buying clothes next weekend. Glad to see Everything is working out for you Carol. 6/20/2007 Hey ladies, I took a break for a week or so from everything related to weight loss. I won't say I feel off the wagon because I kind of felt I needed a break. I didn't over eat, but didn't exercise. Anyway I'm back at it woo hoo. Nice thing I have been trying on close in a 24 and they are ok. Also enjoying having more options to shop at. Looking forward to hitting my goal of an

Well I felt fat yesterday. I think it was bloating So I got on the scale and I was 325. I was suitably traumatized and then got on again this morning and I am back to 321. I think my day/night differential is 3-4 lbs. I am also wondering if I am stuck at 321 because of the weights. Will see what happens. I don't see me being in the teens by the end of the month. I'm a little bummed about it, but I am losing inches. I can see one of my rolls receding, LOL. Also as long as I'm not gaining 1lb at a time is good for me. Second workout was yesterday and no soreness today. I am more tired than I was, but I think that is because of the increase in exercise. I was like that when I started working out in the beginning. Donut is still on the frig, not motivated to eat it, if I haven't touched it by Saturday I am going to throw it out. tomorrow my workout is kind of brutal (for me anyway) 60 min cardio, 30 min belly butt and thighs (prevention fitness) and 45 weights.

Quickie post since i haven't posted in a while. Well my eating is back to normal and I have upped the exercise to include weights. Last weigh in was 321 and goal is to be in the teens by the end of the month. I am going to weigh myself early since a friend is coming to visit and I want to see the difference before and after the visit. For the weights I have been doing Jari love get ripped and prevention fitness 3-2-1. Prevention gives me a full 10 min ab workout, jari is only 4 and I get twice the thigh workout which I think I need since with just one I don't really feel it. I also try and do at least 20-30 min of just cardio before the other stuff. I am a little more tired, but my trip to Jamaica in 2.5 months away and I set a goal for myself. I can't buy clothes for spring/summer until I am 299. I don't think it is unattainable between now and then. We'll see.

Posted on 3fc Well this weekend was probably my worst eating weekend since I started IE. A girlfriend of mine came out to visit and I threw IE out the window. Won't go into everything i ate, but i felt HORRIBLE. I can't even say I enjoyed it. I hated feeling full, and the food was crap so I am suffering for it now.....blah . I don't feel like I feel off the wagon. I feel like this was a good reminder on why I do IE in the first place. On an up note. I realized I have become more critical of my body image since I've been losing and this weekend was a nice reminder that my self image isn't tied to my weight. Posted on 3fc So My eating has been wacky since Saturday. I had that I want something, but don't know what it is and rather than waiting I was eating anyway (bad Obie). So I was heating up my lunch and standing by the vending machine. Something I used to be tempted by constantly and now I can ignore with no problem. Anyway. I settled on a candy bar and I sai

Posted on 3FC So today I exercised for 100 min, 45 min of cardio and 55 min if weights. I also realized one year and one month ago (when I joined 3fc) I could only do 15 min (1 mile Walk away the pounds) and then I would collapse on my couch and be completely exhausted afterwards. I am a DVD person and some days I don't do every step and every knee lift, but I've kept at it and worked at it and here I am. LOL There were some hiccups. i slowed down when I bought my condo and I didn't have a real eating plan until august of last year, but as of Jan I've been pretty much ON plan. So anyway, kinda of proud of myself that I have managed to hang in there

I really believe weight loss is VERY Personal and what works for one won't works for one person may not work for someone else. I also think it is wrong to judge someone else. Having said that I was reading a post on 3fc about a woman who lost 188 lbs and gained 100 lbs back. http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=109894 Some people find her inspirational, but reading her story makes me realize 1. You have to be able to do whatever you decide for life. 2. You need some flexibility. I honestly don't have the right to judge since I haven't lost much, but Reading her plan just seemed like it was a matter of time before her mind and body said ok, we lost weight, but life isn't just about eating to live. Something else That was posted in the 300+ club and I think ties in with this is....Keeping your head in the "game". After I lost my first 20lbs I was able to fit in my clothes better and thought ok. Maybe I can ease up a little and just stay her

I kinda feel like I am moving down the road at a slow clip. While I still love food, it doesn't control how I live. I gave up applebees for lent and while I know I want to go back at some point not really pressed about it. I keep thinking I'd like a hamburger, but will get to it at some point. This week I WANTED salad and fruit. And none of this is a chore. It just seem to be natural. I had Chinese food yesterday...It was ok. I ate it, I didn't need to eat more and no desire to have it again anytime soon. Excercise is kind of the same way. Although I probably wouldn't do it as often, but As long as I hit my three days a week I am ok. I am focused on making my 800 min this month, but if I don't hit it. I know i tried and I am ok with that too. Life is good right now. posted on 3fc Since my schedule is finally pretty normal I have gotten in all my working out this week for the first time in a while. Hoping to make up the 3 days I missed and hit my goal. No

Well it has been a while since I posted. Between no internet at home and being sick just haven' t been able to get a post out. Basically Last month I gained and last the same 3 pounds last month. I did end up at 329. WOO HOO. I've been sick for about a week. A direct result of kissing my ex not boyfriend (i'll explain later). I didn't make my 800 min goal...not even close. I came it at 602 min, so REALLY focused about making my goal this month. So much so that I was obsessing about it while I was sick, although I did force myself to sit out 3 days. Back at it today and while I am not a 100 percent I did ok. I ate the way I felt like eating which included ramen noodles for some reason and managed to get down to 322. Wondering if this is temporary because I was sick or will I keep it off when I feel better. We'll see. So I am 3 lbs away from a major goal of 319. Next weigh in is 4 days away. I don't see losing 3 lbs in that time,although I secretly hop

I haven't posted in a while. ALOT has happened. Basically at the day before my weigh-in 336 the next day I was 335. So I gained 2 lbs, but Aunt Flo had been to visit. That was on March 15th. Last night March 20th I was 335. And since I usually lose a pound over night I know I am back to 334. Eating has returned to normal. No weird cravings. Working out has been a whole other story. I think that is because my schedule has been wacky so I can't work out at my usual work out time and I am trying to force myself to do it at the end of the day when I REALLY don't want to. One thing that is motivating me is my 800 minute excercise goal. I missed it last month by less than 100 min. So this month even if I only do 20 min a day I am trying to stay on goal. I am half way there so I should be ok. Posted on 3fc Eating has returned to normal. Jumped on the scale just to see and doing ok. Not an official weigh-in but I think the gain was more TOM than anything else. I seem

So this week I only worked out once on Monday. I think I've figured out what the problem was. I was supposed to be doing prevention fitness personal training, the weight loss track and I didn't like it. I think my mind just said well I don't like it so I see no point in doing it. I also think I just needed a break from my routine. So I skipped the whole week. Saturday I did an old WATP 2 mile and today I did Yoga Booty Ballet all the way through. I plan my workout for the following week on Sunday so I am doing 30 min of the quick fit kick boxing (more on that later) and the toning from the PF:personal training (20 min). Funny that I am doing the quick fit DVD. I bought it because I liked the kick boxing in the WALK kick (WATP) and thought i would try it with someone else. I bought quick fit and after reviewing it I just couldn't do it. So now 3-4 months later it looks like it will be challenging but doable...Nice.. Food wise. I have been eating intuitively. S

Well this week end been a little wacky. I didn't eat anything I planned to eat. I didn't over eat and I think I made good choices all week. I only exercised once this week which I'm not entirely happy with, but I'm ok with that too. Back at it tomorrow (Saturday). So anyway. I know I haven't had the big 3-4 weight loss I had been having so I jumped on the scale. I'm down a pound( to 333) . Its nice because I haven't gained, but I would like to be firmly in the 320s by the end of the month. I have managed to stick to my lent goals with the exception of the 2 beef meals I've had. I will admit Applebees has been calling and it was rough avoiding the scallops with bacon but I'm ok. Funny who I can ignore the Ben and Jerry's and not the scallops. I wonder if it will get easier. Happy that I am not forming any new attachments with food. I do have a craving for hooter, but I think their salads (if you can call it that, more like salad dressi

Added later: I skimmed my blog looking for something else and realized I've had the whole tastless much epiphany before (is it an epiphany if you had it before and forgot?) anyway...hopefully I won't forget this time. I wonder if I'll ever get to the point with IE where i am not learning something. Well my body went sort of on strike the last few days and I gave in to its demands. I just couldn't make myself eat another tasteless whole wheat English muffin. So I bought Cinnamon raisin ones. Yes they have more calories and yes they probably have some evil chemical in them, but they taste better and I am tired of tasteless dreck. Also I didn't eat my usual lean cuisine/Healthy choice prepackages rubber chicken. I treated myself to Indian and loved it. I have no idea who many calories I had yesterday ....probably quite alot, but I can tell today I am back in the drivers seat. I also had a donut and milk for breakfast So what have we learned boys and girls ...

Whenever I see a meal listed with more than 500 calories...I think oh wow that must be alot of food. I'm here to tell you it isn't. I had 1000 (hamburger, french fries) and a drink and I just got cookies out of the vending machine. So I am at about 1500 for the day. I will probably do over 2000, but thats ok because I know this is just a one day thing. Actually lookign forward to my mega veggie omelet tomorrow morning and trying the chicken marinade I got from 3fc and a the indian recipe from yahoo foods.

Why I love Inuitive eating... So For lent I was giving up Beef along with other habit foods. So Last weekend I had a hamburger and a beef fajitas.....BY about Wednesday or Thursday I had been wanting a hamburger....so today I went ahead and had one...and I realized the beef thing may be because i typically have low iron and thats where I'm getting the boost from. I know there are others ways to get it, but i think that was the way my body was used to getting it. I am pretty sure I won't have any real craving for beef for another week. We'll see...

This was a post by someone else on 3fc and I think it points out how I feel...losing weight and getting complacent...wanting it to be over and I love at the end how she manages to be positive when the scale god isn't showing you some love. I posted this on my livejournal, instead of rewriting it, I'm going the lazy way and copying/pasting. I've had a rough few weeks with the whole weight loss thing, and I'll need to edit the language, but this is the gist of whats been going on in my heart. So, I've been watching what I eat. Working out, although, in the last 2 weeks, its almost everything I can do to get off my fat butt and make myself walk, nevermind anything else. A few weeks ago, even if I had to wait until 11 pm to work out, I STILL worked out. Now, "I'll do extra tomorrow", but like Scarlett, I never face my tomorrows. Guess what? I'm not losing weight! I've let myself slide the last 2 weeks on calories. I've basically, gotten complac

Well I am munching on bacon as I type this. Bad Venus...bad...not because it is bacon, but because it was a completely random trip to the whole food supper market to pick up sushi and ended up being my realization that I cannot be trusted around a buffet....one of those things i have learned. I also have realized if I don't have good stuff to eat I won't eat it. I will never be one of those people who is trying to lose weight and eats tasteless mush. When I got to the buffet I just wanted to try everything, they only thing that stopped me from over doing it is I don't eat eggs and just about everything had egg in it, so I got bacon turkey and pork before of course I must taste both.... and some potatoes and baked cheesy grits....Yup the breakfast of champions. So no more wholefoods in the morning.... As for the food at home. I had one more light english muffin and I have come to realize I don't like light/low/no fat foods. Give me all the fat and I will eat it in

Posted on 3fc Well all week I have been praying for a 2lb (would put me at 339) loss which would put me in to the 330s. Weigh-in isn't until wed, but i got on the scale anyway....335...woo hoo. Make me much closer to the size I wanna be to buy summer clothes much more attainable. Well I can say it here. Next weigh in is March 14th. I would really like to be at 329 by then. My Official weigh-in isn't until Wednesday so I'll be playing the game with the scale until Wednesday morning. Also I am waiting for the time I get on the scale and nothing happens......blah...but trying to stay positive. Something else people would day the weight is falling off, but I worked this crap off. LOL

Well I was thinking this weekend, my blog is always so positive, nothing bad has really happened. Well here is a negative. Being jealous of other peoples weight loss. It isn't that I don't want them to lose, but I wonder why can't I lose the way they do..... I've lost 16 pounds so far (I take the lowest number I see on the scale) and that's good and all, but there are people who have lost 25 lbs.....why can't that be me blah...There is also a woman who was exercising every day and did everything she was supposed to and every time I read her posts rather than be inspired I felt like whats the point I suck. I think it was she just made it sound so easy. Then she feel off the wagon and I said OK ...she isn't superwoman. I guess what I am thinking is I need to do it the way I can do it...what works for me. She can't do what I do and I can't do what she does.....and hopefully we will both end up at the same place. But I think it is because the

Well applebees is one of my favorite places to eat...I have have absolutely no idea why, but it is....so this weekend i went and I wanted the riblets and chicken platter....2000 Calories, but I wanted it and I hadn't had the boneless buffalo wings in a while, easily 700 calories if not more. Here is the nice thing, 3/4 of the buffalo wings and all the chicken fingers are sitting in a take out bad in my living room (soon to be moved to my fridge). I ate what I wanted of the boneless buffalo wings and left the rest. I ate the fried and riblets and left the rest. No soda just water for the whole meal. Didn't have any desire for dessert. This is kinda of a big deal for me, because it means I've changed. I realized I was eating easily 3000-4000 calories when I went for one meal. I would have a couple glasses of some sugary drink, and appetizer, full meal, and a dessert....and eat all of it. Sometimes this was all I ate for the day, but still... Anyway, kinda of nice to know

Posted on 3fc the Obie Plan Intuitive Eating-Helps with portion control and emotional eating Very unofficial calorie counting-helps me realize exactly what I am eating, avoid mistakes like eating a muffin I thought was 200 calories and it is actually 600 (yeah that happened). I might eat it anyway, but I like to know. I have calorieking book marked on my blackberry for when i am out. LOL Wholefoods/Education-Whenever possible I try and eat the organic version of something, but I refuse to throw out all the stuff I already bought. With the IE I started avoiding oily sauces and eating more fruits and vegetables.I takes me a couple of hours to do my big grocery shopping (and I live alone) I care more about what I am eating. I only drink water. No particular amount, but I have a 32 ounce water bottle that I fill up and I usually drink at lease one of those a day. I do drink soda and juice usually when I am out some where eating and I try to drink the soda/juice after I have finished a

I think when you are on a long life journey of some kind you usually come to forks in road that will decide how the rest of the journey will go. Obviously with weight loss everyday you make little decisions to eat better, exercise and so on, but then there are moments when you have to decide if your stopping your journey and getting permanently derailed. This week I had my period and I had been craving donuts. Thursday I went ahead and ate a donut and a danish, but I was ok with it and everything returned to normal. Last night I felt like I had one of those choices. I went to the supermarket to buy little things like eggs, milk bread. I wasn't hungry and wasn't even really thinking about food....until I got to the bakery section and saw the donuts. I know it wasn't PMS and I wasn't hungry...it wasn't even a special craving for sugar. I was just thinking i want 2 of those donuts and no one will know...its late...and in my head i was thinking they wouldn't co

Well lately I have been noticing my clothes are loser so I decided to pick a dress I want to buy from a store I can't shop at now in my goal size. Size 18/20 So this is from Newport New Glamorous deep V-neck dress in soft polyester mesh over a nude nylon lining. Back zip. 30" from the waist. Hand wash. Imported. Women's 9H G9025 Was $84.00 Now $64.00

I think I am experiencing PMS for the first time. By that I mean I went crazy for chocolate last month and today I just had to have something other than my usual lean cuisine and fruit. I realized before I would just eat whatever popped into my head without thinking about why i wanted it. Now since I am much more attentive I realize I do have weird craving.....

Well I haven't posted in a while. Seems like I learn something new everyday. I went to my parents this weekend and just ate. I don't think I overate as much as I normally would have, but I ate more than I should have. I also had a few days where I went over my 2000 calories, but since I need 3000 to maintain my current weight I am still pretty ok. I kinda fell of the excercise wagon. I am trying to build up to Mon-Fri and weekendos off but just can't seem to get motivated to workout as soon as I get home. I have a part time job at night starting thursdays so we'll see what happens. I am guessing I am going to have to adjust to nights. So I weigh myself twice a month I know I have lost inches because the black jean that were once super tight even after I wore them a few times are now pretty lose. So thats night. But here is more proof the scale is wacky. Weighed myself last night 345. I didn't gain or lose. Weighed myself this morning after first bathroom t

I ate alot today, more than I have in a good long while. I think it is the "in my head I am taking a break thing" I was pretty concious of it. I had some really bad pasta and a foot long subway sandwich (which I haven't had in months since I started IE). I was aware I was doing it and managed to pick thigs that weren't that horrible. I am totaled it to about 2300 calories today. I think I average about 1500 to 1700 so that is alot. I kinda feel like I ate all the stuff I had been craving. Next week I think we're going to limit my "break day" to just my meal at work and one meal on saturday and not the whole day. I also know how I was eating 3000+ calories a day. I had a muffin for breakfast. Normally it would have been potatoes, sausage, toast and so on, and then lunch and then a big dinner. I would say all of those are about 1000+ calories each. The othing thing is I feel like I really don't want anything else for the rest of the night.

Post on 3fc I did the big food shopping yesterday. You know when you wonder did you actually put all that stuff in the cart. Took me 2 hours since I read EVERY LABEL I think I did pretty good in terms of buying things that aren't processed. Funny story on my scale...I wanted to do a weigh in twice a month so the last night of Jan. I got on and had gained 3 lbs. I was ok because overall I am still losing. I shrugged my shoulders and headed to bed. Just for kicks I pulled the scale out from under the bed once again first thing in the morning and I was down 4 lbs. Eating has been ok.

Well I just couldn't what to weigh myself and I am up 3 lbs. Normally I would be devastated, but Everything 3fc has taught says 1. I should probably weight myself in the morning. 2. It is not the end of the world. I also have to admit i overate yesterday, and I had a big meal Saturday . So the plans is to stick to what I am supposed to do and weigh again Saturday morning. The guy I am seeing will be up Saturday morning, and it is Super bowl weekend, so eating is not going to be the greatest this weekend. Everything else is ok. Added Later I just realized I got cocky. I assumed since I had had all this great weight loss I could eat whatever. I have not been eating intuitively. So I am glad I did the weighin and will try and do better.

Well I am learning weight loss is a big numbers game. So I really thought what my first major goal is going to be. I want to lose 60 lbs by June. With IE I am supposed to just let things happen naturally, but 60 lbs would put me under 300 lbs and I SHOULD be in a 24 or darn close to it. This means I need to lose 10 lbs a month. Sign...lol. I would have to lose another 7 lbs this month to make that goal. I am DYING to get on the scale, but for this first month I want to ease into everything. I also am honest that I want the dimples in my thighs to go away. I really want to be able to wear shorts when I go to Jamaica in the summer. I took a picture last year in my bathing suit and I could have died. Hard to believe that the guy I am dating loves me, dimples in my thighs and booty and all.

Posted on 3fc Ok, sorry about the long title. So I was home alone all weekend, first weekend in a while I haven't had to rush somewhere so I did alot of catch up my Tivo Anyway, I used to get really uncomfortable and annoyed whenever I saw a commercial about weight loss like the ballys, the subway commercials, the magic weight loss pills, weight watchers. Anything that reminded me I needed to do something about my health and weight. Anyway this weekend I watched most with a nice please detachment. I thought I've done my excercise for the week and I know my eating has been good. I also watch the magic pill commercials (like the one anna nicole was pushing, this one pill will target and the weight will fall off) or the magic exercise equipment commercial (this equipment will target and you will lose weight while only using it 5 min a day or some non sense) I only just noticed that they add with regular diet an excercise in tiny letter (i got a bigger TV for xmas so I can see th

Well I haven't posted in a while, just been busy at work, my so called relationship is having issues and just tired. This week was my first week "on program" which mean eating right and excercising and I got my period. So I think for the first time I had PMS cravings that everyone else talks about and I never noticed. I think I never noticed because whatever the craving was I would satisfy it and that would be it. Really it wasn't that bad looking back, but it was annoying being in the middle of it. I have been checking most of the foods I don't cook against calorie king, just to get an idea of where I am. I also check what calories I need to lose. Kinda shocked me to realize I was eating 3000+ calories a day. Right now I am doing 2000 or less, and not missing anything really. If I can stay about that. I should lose a poind a week. Thats the goal anyway. I really want the dimples in my thighs to go away. Would be really nice to be comfortable enough to

Post on 3fc Well I went to visit my family this weekend and much better than I had been doing. Went to the movie saturday had a soda, no popcorn, hot dog or nachos. Soda was all I wanted. Next day went to my grandmothers and I was hungry, wanted jamaican food, but couldn't get it. We ended up getting soul food and I gave away most of my chicken (had 3 pieces only at 1) and threw away most of my yams. Had some soup my mother made and didn't eat any of the meatloaf. I love meatloaf but wasn't in the mood for it. So one of my biggest hurdles is past me (phew). Back home and still on track. NSV this weekend also we went to the movies to see Stomp the yard and the escalator was broken. I was with my 3 cousins and sister and they of course we a little winded but ok. I managed to keep up with them and just when I thought I couldn't do it anymore it was over. I have been doing squats which I was afraid to do because of knees pain. ALL knee pain is gone. Before it had stopped

What a difference a pound makes A lot of things happened yesterday good and bad and none of it matted because all I could think was I lost 3 lbs. Temptation seems to be even less of an issue because I have no desire to ever gain those 3 lbs back. I might one day, but I don't see it happning anytime soon. I also am realizing i have a ways to go. I got up and did 5 miles and my weights. I made a mega veggie egg white omlet. Onions, mushrooms, yellow pepper, scallions. I put ketchup on it without tasting it. All I really tasted was ketchup. So when i want back to finish it up. I didn't put anything on it and it tasted good. ok what have we learned boys and girls? If you cook something good you don't need to cover up the taste of it....or season it to death. Ok, anyway, I think thats it for now, see ya later bill and ted.

Posted on 3fc I really must be pmsing badly today. I am crying while I write this because I lost 3 lbs. Silly I finally just couldn't take it anymore and got on the d*** thing and couldn't believe it was right. It is finally starting to happen....slowly, but it is happening. I know it is only 3 lbs, but I think it means I am doing something right. I was also stressing because the muffin I was eating was 500 calories not 200 and I was eating one everyday. I am not a calorie counter, but I like to have an accurate idea of what I am putting in my mouth. Anyway. I just have to say thank you to everyone who has put up with me, especially this week. I really couldn't have even gotten this fat without you all. I don't think I will have an emotional breakdown every weigh in, but just happy it is finally coming together. I have been doing IE since about Aug 2006 and only "plan" I have stuck to. Ok I could ramble on through the tears, but I am going to stop.

Well I have been obsessing about number, my weight, calories, calories from fat, reps, set, miles, minutes... Slowly going crazy. I know it is because I have to get on the scale in a few days and if I haven't lost something it is going to be a problem. Also while I have been following IE I have also been mentally trying to figure out how many calories I've been eating. Well I have been eating a muffin every day for breakfast and thought at most it would be 200-300 calories. I dumped everything into fitday and it was more like 400-500. I am still in the 1800-2000 range but I thought I was more 1400-1600. I am also excercising so it is "almost" balancing out. To make myself feel better I walked around the office. and didn't use the eleveator to get in between floors and I wasn't speedy, but i did it and actually could do it again. The squats and lunges I have been doing with the WATP-walk strong have helped quite a bit. So I guess what I am saying is even

Well I haven't posted in a while, Work has not been fun, so pretty busy. Also I added a few links. Eating has been ok, I think I have some left over low carb brainwashing on the brain because I have been unconciously avoiding breads. Also I think there is a difference between eating till you're not hungry, eating till you're satisfied and eating till you're full. I was unconciously doing the first only to end up walking around hungry for most of the day. So I did some adjusting and now I have something carby in the morning with milk. Have been exploring more vegetables. I have hated spinach pretty much all my life, but after eating it with Inidian food a while ago I realized it was just the way it was prepared. I made it last night with garlic, olive oil and some cilantro (also playing with spices) and I loved it. Someone posted a recipe for hummus so going to try it and add that with some whole wheat pita as a snack (something other than fruit would be nice). Excercise

Well I got back on track with the walking. 7 miles in 2 days is alot compared to where i started from and would be nice to knock out 10 miles by sunday (the end of my work out week). Well on 3fc I have noticed how bad High Frucose Corn Syrup (HFCS) is. So I had some lamb to cook and wanted some flavor. So instead of the marinade (which has HFCS) I bought I put some olive oil, rosemary and thyme in a pan and heated that then added the lamb. A little salt and pepper on both sides. It was probably the best lamb I have ever cooked. I think I am going to give the un-used stuff to my family and finish up the rest. Or we'll see. Something else that happened yesterday. I take the bus from NY to NJ to go home and there is a long escalator to get to the bus top. Easily 20-30 feet.....and the escalator wasn't working. I walked up without stoping. I didn't feel like I was going to die and at the top I didn't stop I kept moving to get to where I had to go. So I realized

Excercise Log 1/4/2007 4 miles 2 miles watp 2 miles watp-walk strong

Well the holidays are finally over and I am back on track with my eating. I realize at some point I am going to have to deal with what happens when my boyfriend comes to visit. I can't seem to focuc when he's there..anyway.... I am still doing the IE. I starting brining my lunch to work so I would stop buying food during lunch. Means I don't really go out for lunch, but its cold so I am ok with that. This week I up my weight training. One of my goals is to be able to do 50 pushups by the end of the year. I am going to try for 5 tonight....blah... So tonight 2 miles with Leslie, 2 miles walk strong (8 lb weights). This weekend I will test out the Prevention Magazine DVDs I bought over the break. Wish me luck.