The Intuituve Eater

So I was looking for distraction from the vending machine monster and I found a 100 calorie snack ( i need to start carrying those again) and realized I was 312 lbs back in April. :-(, but I think the good thing is I am back at 312 and will soon be lower. I also learned spring and summer are bad times for me and I need to learn to modify my exercise plan during the summer. I think I felt like if I didn't feel like working out I couldn't do anything. I should have done maybe 30 min or something...We'll see I also noticed I am slightly scale obsessed, but like I posted before the scale has been who I judge myself and right now I WANT to be under 300lbs. So between the 100 cal snack and reading 3fc and the blog I am ok. Now home to a bowl full of mixed vegetables ( lol and I am actually looking forward to it)

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So Part of my IE is staying under 2000 calories. usually I do this without thinking about it..I think it is a hold over from my dieting days and it works, so I keep it around. So anyway. It occured to me, that there are people in countries who are so called "less advanced" than the US and they are thinner and healthier than us and they have no idea what a calorie is, how many carbs they are eating or any of other many measurements we have around. I was also thinking that there was a time in this country when people had no idea what a calories was and there didn't seem to be an obesity epidemic until we got all educated....

Sometimes I need to be reminded that the all mighty scale should not be the end all and be all of everything. I have been trying to get to under 300 for a while, and when I focused I was slowling heading down from 318 316 314 312.....then i got on one day after visiting my parents and I was 320....I said f*ck it said I am taking a break and i am not getting on the scale for a while...Well I had my period at the time....So a week later yesterday in fact. I got on and I was 312...no nothing magical happened, but i stuck to my IE, exercised (although i skipped 2 days) and I had dropped what I am guessing is water weight. So I am back on track and happy I didn't beat myself up and binge or anything

Note: I started a 21 day challenge to help me get in the right mind set and stop me from blindly eating stuff and really think about what I put in my mouth. So No Donuts, no pause days. (i just can't be trusted) No eating out for lunch at work 3 pause days. No vending machine at work no pause days. Under 2000 Calories 2 pause days. So I am Day 3 of everything and I am pretty sure I am going to have to use a pause day for under 2000 calories since I am at 1740 and still need to eat dinner, but we'll see So I was on my way to the vending machine, had stuck the money in and was about to select my usual treat when I thought hey....something isn't right. I remembered i had joined the challenge and I was going to have to post here that I didn't do so well early on. So I pushed the change button and walked away. I still want something, but I think it is just a a habit and I am not going to give in. I am off to suck down some water. Even after I walked away the vending machin

Well I am ashamed it has been this long since I posted. I got down to 306 after much not eating and too much exercising, but after the trip to Jamaica I haven't gotten back in the groove of things. I think alot of that has to do with issues with the Ex. Those may not be settled, but i am not as emotionally invested as I won't was. With IE I was able to stay at 320 or under. I am 312 now, and focused once again. I am not nearly as strict as I was, which might also explain why I haven't gotten under 300. Anyway....Thats where I am at now. Will try and write more later.