The Intuituve Eater

So it's taken me 2 months to lose 4 lbs.  I know people are are gonna ready that and be like dude you suck. There are a couple of things to note: When  I started 2 months ago I was 359 and then the week after I went up to 363. I checked my spreadsheet and I haven't been 355 or lower in 4 years.  I've been struggling in the 360s for YEARS !!!!!! I've been in the 350s for a couple of weeks with a mostly steady decline I'm not struggling with eating, and working out is doable. In terms of non scale victories.  I can eat salad. It isn't the end of the world and honestly when I'm out and about it takes the weight of having to figure out what to eat. I don't feel the need to eat EVERYTHING on my plate. I don't eat what I don't want.  ( We will ignore the cream puff I had yesterday) I have more energy.  I don't come home and veg doing nothing until bed time.  I mean I do it sometimes, but if I need to do something I am more lik...

So I'm about 2 lbs away from my monthly goal.  I haven't worked out in about a week, but I have been on plan for 3 days after the visit to my parents. I've realized the most important part of losing weight is staying focused.  If you fall off the wagon get up. If you are tilted to the side, get straight, but keep going.  The worse thing you can do is stop trying.  Over all I only lost 2 lbs, but I recovered from the bad weekend and my period came so all the days I stayed on plan meant I didn't have this huge gain. Stupidly proud of myself. Something else weird happened this week. I usually drink ice coffee, but its pricey, so I bought starbucks pre-made ice coffee.  I ended up having this weird sugar headache.  I ate food, thinking I wasn't eating enough.  After 2 hours I had a pack of oreos and it went away after about 40 min. The next day I had no coffee and no issues.  It makes me think there is something with the starbucks coffee...

It took about a day to lose the weight from the weekend, add on my tilt off the wagon( more on that later). I think weekends will always be a weird time, the goal tho is to stay mostly on plan unless it is a planned cheat meal. Anyway, so I have a slight cold, my period is coming and I had a sugar craving.  I waited till after lunch realized part of it was just being hungry. I bought two pack of 6 oreos.  The craving lessened after I ate lunch, but it didn't go away.  I probably could have just not ate them, but I don't want it to grow into a binge. So I ate them With all of that i'm down almost 2 lbs this morning, which is my total for the weekend. I did work out yesterday and I stayed on plan except for the oreos.  Dealing with my eating and how I deal with food is the war.  This was a small skirmish and I don't take as a loss.  I made a concious decision after hours and comtemplation to eat the cookies.  I don't have any desire for anything els...

The goal this weekend was to not each out as much with the assumption it would help in my weight loss.  I think I gained a lil over 2 lbs. Yeah that was myself too. Normally I would panic, beat myself up, workout super hard, but I didn't.  I had a sandwish and a big bowl of soup from panera while waiting for my oil change saturday.  They might be organic, but I still have issues with white carbs.  I didn't take my usual vitamin D and apple cider vinegar. I didn't workout Sunday.  I'm pretty ok with all of this since it was the weekend and honestly I don't know if one thing or a combination of things caused the gain. I also weighed myself at 3:30am.  My bladders not my friend..blah...Anyway, I've learned if I had waiting till 7-8 my body would have probably processed another half pound to a pound. I went to the bathroom and had went down .4 of a lb.   I did my usual workout today and it just means I'll need to stay on plan this week.  Which...

So I haven't posted in a while on purpose. So my slow carb diet wasn't working for me.  The problem was I couldn't seem to handle the 6 days on plan and only one day on plan. I could get the 6 days, cheat day was literally the whole weekend and then I could maybe go 5 days before I would have another fall off the wagon.  Also the scale was killing me.  I was sabotaging myself then trying to work off the cheat weight and then annoyed when the scale wasn't moving. Also the end of summer hangouts caused problems... I also kept hurting myself.  I was wearing shoes that did something to m feet where walking hurt.  I was fine barefoot, but shoes hurt. So I just stopped...everything. I haven't been on the scale in a couple of weeks.  If I want to cheat I think about it and make a decision.  Weirdly I'm not that pressed about it. There was a sugar binge, but I started my period the next day so I'm gonna chalk that up to hormones. Then I got sick...

I said I wouldn't post again until I was in the 350s, but I need to vent and I realize I am not a good group weightloss person. Weightloss..has been pretty ok. From Sept to Jan I just ate whatever...got up to 375.....and i've been bobing arounf the 360s due to too much hanging out and enjoyment of food (damn you oh so lovely sushi). I got focused and then hurt my knee, but ate pretty ok while I was unable to workout on my knee.  I'm at 365 as of the beginning of April. I'm waiting for my period to be over to get on the scale again. So thats the recap...now for the vent....I am in a pretty awesome FB group, but with all things you aren't going agree with everyone.  I installed myfitnesspal to help keep a lil more honest about what i'm eating and it has been a little bit of an eye opener about how much sodium I'm taking in.  Somethings like my fried egges are alil high..but I had a  steak for the first time since Feb??? (I gave up beef for lent) and it w...

LOL once I start blogging I can't stop. So I'm in the exercise groove...I've been here before..the weight is coming off.  I'm eating right, feeling good..and then...I do too much, get frustrated and binge and then quit...sigh So I started posting on 3 fat chicks again.  I felt like I need an outlet for things I was feeling without judgement and I like reading about other people struggles so I don't feel alone.  I am avoiding any challenges and any group posts.  The posts where everyone already knows everyone so you post but no one responds because they don't really know you...blah... The reality is I don't do well on challenges and it stops becoming about weight loss and feeling good and more about "winning" nothing..because there is no actual prize.  If I win yeah..but often I "lose" and feel bad and then begins a downward spiral into feeling like a failure.  Weirdly this is also the reason I never got into counting carbs or cal...

Posted on 3fc: Had a binge this weekend blah :?:  It wasn't emotional or anything.  I bought the low carb peanut butter cups and I ate the whole box (12).  I was mildly hungry, but I have been on this sugar thing lately.  Anyway, they can't come back in the house.  When it cools off I'll keep in the car.  I worked out a lil harder this morning.  Also seems since I've been working out I need to relearn hunger and not overeat. I like to work out on an empty stomach and by the time I'm done I feel like I wanna gnaw off my own leg.  I worked out, had a glass of almond milk to take the edge off while I made breakfast.  That was about 8:30. By the time I was almost to work at noon I was looking for something else.  So I picked up a danish...blah.  I packed my lunch today and dinner should be fine, but maybe I need a bigger breakfast.  I'm thinking of trying toast with breakfast on wednesday and see if that helps. To stop my add...

So yesterday I had lunch with my best friend.  She's smaller than me, but still heavy.  We went out to an Indian Buffet and I should have just ordered something from the menu, but I didn't want to spend to much since we were splitting the bill and had the buffet BAD MOVE.  It was all creamy sauce stuff which really begs to be poured over rice.  I was trying to pour it over the cauliflower dish, but that had potatoes in it.  I ended up just saying eff it and eating the cauliflower with a little potatoe.  Then my flawles logic *heavy sarcasm* said well if I'mma cheat go ahead and have the rice too.  I then had like 4 glasses of water.  I don't feel like I ate alot, the problem is I ate because of self peer pressure. I think of course wanted to punish myself and was going to make myself to a really hard workout today, but thought.  Ok I don't really want to do it...and I don't want to NOT workout because I don't want to do the work out.  ...

So I haven't really posted in a while, I find I stop when I'm  not doing so well and keep going when I'm doing great.  Well I'm in a good place.  For the first time I've managed to lose weight during the summer.  I haven't pushed myself to work out, but I have been watching what I've been eating.  I am using intuitive eating /exercise.  I haven't worked out in a while because its been too hot, but with eating better I've managed to lose.  Finally my body was like we miss working out and I had to workup ALOT of stairs since an escalator on the way to work was broken.  So, today I did 15 min of cardio with weights.  I was sweating like a slave in the fields.  I'm a lil grumpy that in about a month I lost so much ...endurance..but its a process and I'll be back at it. I'm currently PMSing which means my period is coming.  The cravings are over (blah at falling off for donuts), but i have about 7 days where I really won't be losing an...