The Intuituve Eater

I think I just posted yesterday, but it's been an interesting 24 hours. Pre current weightloss journey I would come home tired, chores and other things waited until I the weekend.  I would rest (procrastinate saturday) and then sunday try and get some stuff done and really not much would happen and that would be it. Last night I ran errands, did laundry.  The night before I moved the refrigerator because something had spilled and attacked gnats.  A couple of months ago...none of that would have happened.  I'm gonna claim that as a NSV Today was my first doctor's visit in maybe 2 years.  I was always putting it off thinking I know the Dr is going to tell me to lose weight, so I'll just wait and lose weight first.  Just so we're clear that's not how that works.  GO TO THE DOCTOR.  My big questions are do I have high blood pressure and am I diabetic. My blood pressure is 140/82.  For me that's high, but there might be another reason for that.

So this week while getting dressed for work I noticed my bra fit better.  I mean I didn't suddenly have perky boobs.  In fact I've never had perky boobs, not even at the point where I was young and perky boobs were supposed to be a thing.  I digress.   Anyway, there was a little less boobs and I didn't get the extra baby boob poke up.  If you have big boobs you know what I mean.  I could wear my pants over both of my belly rolls.  Usually I have to  put it between them because otherwise I can't bend over or sit comfortably.  I have been cleaning my house at night.  Nothing major, but instead of collapsing and feeling tired I actually have some energy when I get home.  Last night it was moving my refrigerator to clean up a spill that was attracting gnats.  I think I'm sleeping better.  I feel more rested.   Working out is becoming less of a chore and more of a habit that I just have to do it.  Confession to that is, I don't do work outs I d

Whenever I watch any kind of workout video it usually a thing woman with a  exercise bra thing.  I don't normally care because I'm too busy drowning in my own sweat and cursing her parents and anyone else responsible for her existence....Ok that was a lil harsh..just her parents.  Anyway.  I recorded one of my workouts and I felt like my form for my squats was off because I don't usually wear a bra when I work out and it changed my center of gravity.  One was a "traditional" workout bra and another was a weird space age looking thing that I got from lane bryant during their semi annual sale. Lane Bryant sports Bra When I got it I was kinda like eh  I don't think this is how this works, but once I started to work out.  I didn't notice it.  It actually felt like it helped my form in alot or areas and it was super comfortable. The "traditional bra" had my boobs all over the place and just distracted during the enter work out. My o

About 3-4 months ago I was toying with the idea of having weight loss surgery.  No one was recommending it, but I felt like I was having weight creep and maybe I should use a tool to help me.  I spoke to a good friend who pointed out I would still have to modify my eating and exercise.  Why not give it a try without the surgery.  He became my accountability partner.  The thing that different is he doesn't judge. He's thin and fit, but doesn't try and push me, if I slack off there isn't OMG you didn't work out guilt trip, and maybe because of that I'm more focused on making it happen.  I've fallen on the wagon, but I "confess" and move on.  It has helped alot.  I try and send him my planned workout and try and complete it during the week.  It's been something I needed.  I've tried other things. Having a one on one person who might not be in my shoes, but is there with a shoulder if needed has been a bit of a game changer. Finding a d