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Fork in the road

I think when you are on a long life journey of some kind you usually come to forks in road that will decide how the rest of the journey will go. Obviously with weight loss everyday you make little decisions to eat better, exercise and so on, but then there are moments when you have to decide if your stopping your journey and getting permanently derailed.

This week I had my period and I had been craving donuts. Thursday I went ahead and ate a donut and a danish, but I was ok with it and everything returned to normal.

Last night I felt like I had one of those choices. I went to the supermarket to buy little things like eggs, milk bread. I wasn't hungry and wasn't even really thinking about food....until I got to the bakery section and saw the donuts. I know it wasn't PMS and I wasn't hungry...it wasn't even a special craving for sugar. I was just thinking i want 2 of those donuts and no one will know...its late...and in my head i was thinking they wouldn't count...its the end of the day anyway....

So with all of that I got 2....because well if it doesn't count than 2 really shouldn't matter...in my infinite wisdom.

So I put them in my cart and continued to walk around the store. I was about to leave and had to adjust some stuff and saw the donuts and then I did the calculation of how many calories. It could have been anywhere from 200-400 per donut. I don't have a problem with the calories per se, but I wasn't hungry and I wasn't eating them for any other reason than I could and no one would know.......but me...

SO I left them in the store. When I finally did get hungry I ate what I had cooked the night before and I'm ok.

I do think I have some kinda sugar craving and I am going to get a piece of carrot cake today.

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