The Intuituve Eater

So I was looking for distraction from the vending machine monster and I found a 100 calorie snack ( i need to start carrying those again) and realized I was 312 lbs back in April. :-(, but I think the good thing is I am back at 312 and will soon be lower. I also learned spring and summer are bad times for me and I need to learn to modify my exercise plan during the summer. I think I felt like if I didn't feel like working out I couldn't do anything. I should have done maybe 30 min or something...We'll see I also noticed I am slightly scale obsessed, but like I posted before the scale has been who I judge myself and right now I WANT to be under 300lbs. So between the 100 cal snack and reading 3fc and the blog I am ok. Now home to a bowl full of mixed vegetables ( lol and I am actually looking forward to it)

I don't see myself getting into this anytime soon (maybe by December) but it is inspiration to stay on track. from macy's .com Necessary Objects Plus Sizes Ballerina Babydoll Dress London Times Woman Empire-Waist Dress With Bow $89.00 Sashay into any room with confidence in this chic empire-waist dress.

So Part of my IE is staying under 2000 calories. usually I do this without thinking about it..I think it is a hold over from my dieting days and it works, so I keep it around. So anyway. It occured to me, that there are people in countries who are so called "less advanced" than the US and they are thinner and healthier than us and they have no idea what a calorie is, how many carbs they are eating or any of other many measurements we have around. I was also thinking that there was a time in this country when people had no idea what a calories was and there didn't seem to be an obesity epidemic until we got all educated....

Sometimes I need to be reminded that the all mighty scale should not be the end all and be all of everything. I have been trying to get to under 300 for a while, and when I focused I was slowling heading down from 318 316 314 312.....then i got on one day after visiting my parents and I was 320....I said f*ck it said I am taking a break and i am not getting on the scale for a while...Well I had my period at the time....So a week later yesterday in fact. I got on and I was 312...no nothing magical happened, but i stuck to my IE, exercised (although i skipped 2 days) and I had dropped what I am guessing is water weight. So I am back on track and happy I didn't beat myself up and binge or anything

Note: I started a 21 day challenge to help me get in the right mind set and stop me from blindly eating stuff and really think about what I put in my mouth. So No Donuts, no pause days. (i just can't be trusted) No eating out for lunch at work 3 pause days. No vending machine at work no pause days. Under 2000 Calories 2 pause days. So I am Day 3 of everything and I am pretty sure I am going to have to use a pause day for under 2000 calories since I am at 1740 and still need to eat dinner, but we'll see So I was on my way to the vending machine, had stuck the money in and was about to select my usual treat when I thought hey....something isn't right. I remembered i had joined the challenge and I was going to have to post here that I didn't do so well early on. So I pushed the change button and walked away. I still want something, but I think it is just a a habit and I am not going to give in. I am off to suck down some water. Even after I walked away the vending machin...

Well I am ashamed it has been this long since I posted. I got down to 306 after much not eating and too much exercising, but after the trip to Jamaica I haven't gotten back in the groove of things. I think alot of that has to do with issues with the Ex. Those may not be settled, but i am not as emotionally invested as I won't was. With IE I was able to stay at 320 or under. I am 312 now, and focused once again. I am not nearly as strict as I was, which might also explain why I haven't gotten under 300. Anyway....Thats where I am at now. Will try and write more later.

Well this is my first post in 2 months. As of 6/15 I am down to 312 lbs, which is with in spitting distance of getting out of the teens. I think I am a 26 (tight 24). Which means, shopping has gotten a whole lot more interesting. This is one of the dresses I am looking at. It is at macy's and it is a 24. My ex's mother is getting married and I am using that as incentive to keep going. For the last 10 years I think. I have been only been able to shop at 3 stores and in the last 5 i had to buy my jeans at roamans.com. It isn't that the scale ISN'T motivating. Its just that after a while I am desensitized to it and isn't enough motivation to get me out of bed. So today I looked at this dress know that I would order it about august 15 and hoping I am a solid 24 (tight) 22 by then. I did kind of cheat and order my swimsuits in 24, but thats because they are stretch and I have noticed anything I have in a 26 is loose. So, I should be ok Me and the ex are ok.

6/23/2007 Hey everyone, well something interesting happened. I mentioned I took "break" from all things weight loss related, no exercise and no calorie counting, but I did kind of stick to my IE. It was more unconscious than anything. SO I decided to weight myself so how much I had gained and I lost 6 lbs in about a week. I feel almost like a science experiment. I honestly think is was a combination of IE and the weights I had been doing. Anyway, trip to Jamaica is in less than a month and I start buying clothes next weekend. Glad to see Everything is working out for you Carol. 6/20/2007 Hey ladies, I took a break for a week or so from everything related to weight loss. I won't say I feel off the wagon because I kind of felt I needed a break. I didn't over eat, but didn't exercise. Anyway I'm back at it woo hoo. Nice thing I have been trying on close in a 24 and they are ok. Also enjoying having more options to shop at. Looking forward to hitting my goal of an...

Well I felt fat yesterday. I think it was bloating So I got on the scale and I was 325. I was suitably traumatized and then got on again this morning and I am back to 321. I think my day/night differential is 3-4 lbs. I am also wondering if I am stuck at 321 because of the weights. Will see what happens. I don't see me being in the teens by the end of the month. I'm a little bummed about it, but I am losing inches. I can see one of my rolls receding, LOL. Also as long as I'm not gaining 1lb at a time is good for me. Second workout was yesterday and no soreness today. I am more tired than I was, but I think that is because of the increase in exercise. I was like that when I started working out in the beginning. Donut is still on the frig, not motivated to eat it, if I haven't touched it by Saturday I am going to throw it out. tomorrow my workout is kind of brutal (for me anyway) 60 min cardio, 30 min belly butt and thighs (prevention fitness) and 45 weights....

Quickie post since i haven't posted in a while. Well my eating is back to normal and I have upped the exercise to include weights. Last weigh in was 321 and goal is to be in the teens by the end of the month. I am going to weigh myself early since a friend is coming to visit and I want to see the difference before and after the visit. For the weights I have been doing Jari love get ripped and prevention fitness 3-2-1. Prevention gives me a full 10 min ab workout, jari is only 4 and I get twice the thigh workout which I think I need since with just one I don't really feel it. I also try and do at least 20-30 min of just cardio before the other stuff. I am a little more tired, but my trip to Jamaica in 2.5 months away and I set a goal for myself. I can't buy clothes for spring/summer until I am 299. I don't think it is unattainable between now and then. We'll see.

Posted on 3fc Well this weekend was probably my worst eating weekend since I started IE. A girlfriend of mine came out to visit and I threw IE out the window. Won't go into everything i ate, but i felt HORRIBLE. I can't even say I enjoyed it. I hated feeling full, and the food was crap so I am suffering for it now.....blah . I don't feel like I feel off the wagon. I feel like this was a good reminder on why I do IE in the first place. On an up note. I realized I have become more critical of my body image since I've been losing and this weekend was a nice reminder that my self image isn't tied to my weight. Posted on 3fc So My eating has been wacky since Saturday. I had that I want something, but don't know what it is and rather than waiting I was eating anyway (bad Obie). So I was heating up my lunch and standing by the vending machine. Something I used to be tempted by constantly and now I can ignore with no problem. Anyway. I settled on a candy bar and I sai...

Posted on 3FC So today I exercised for 100 min, 45 min of cardio and 55 min if weights. I also realized one year and one month ago (when I joined 3fc) I could only do 15 min (1 mile Walk away the pounds) and then I would collapse on my couch and be completely exhausted afterwards. I am a DVD person and some days I don't do every step and every knee lift, but I've kept at it and worked at it and here I am. LOL There were some hiccups. i slowed down when I bought my condo and I didn't have a real eating plan until august of last year, but as of Jan I've been pretty much ON plan. So anyway, kinda of proud of myself that I have managed to hang in there

I really believe weight loss is VERY Personal and what works for one won't works for one person may not work for someone else. I also think it is wrong to judge someone else. Having said that I was reading a post on 3fc about a woman who lost 188 lbs and gained 100 lbs back. http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=109894 Some people find her inspirational, but reading her story makes me realize 1. You have to be able to do whatever you decide for life. 2. You need some flexibility. I honestly don't have the right to judge since I haven't lost much, but Reading her plan just seemed like it was a matter of time before her mind and body said ok, we lost weight, but life isn't just about eating to live. Something else That was posted in the 300+ club and I think ties in with this is....Keeping your head in the "game". After I lost my first 20lbs I was able to fit in my clothes better and thought ok. Maybe I can ease up a little and just stay her...

I kinda feel like I am moving down the road at a slow clip. While I still love food, it doesn't control how I live. I gave up applebees for lent and while I know I want to go back at some point not really pressed about it. I keep thinking I'd like a hamburger, but will get to it at some point. This week I WANTED salad and fruit. And none of this is a chore. It just seem to be natural. I had Chinese food yesterday...It was ok. I ate it, I didn't need to eat more and no desire to have it again anytime soon. Excercise is kind of the same way. Although I probably wouldn't do it as often, but As long as I hit my three days a week I am ok. I am focused on making my 800 min this month, but if I don't hit it. I know i tried and I am ok with that too. Life is good right now. posted on 3fc Since my schedule is finally pretty normal I have gotten in all my working out this week for the first time in a while. Hoping to make up the 3 days I missed and hit my goal. No ...

Well it has been a while since I posted. Between no internet at home and being sick just haven' t been able to get a post out. Basically Last month I gained and last the same 3 pounds last month. I did end up at 329. WOO HOO. I've been sick for about a week. A direct result of kissing my ex not boyfriend (i'll explain later). I didn't make my 800 min goal...not even close. I came it at 602 min, so REALLY focused about making my goal this month. So much so that I was obsessing about it while I was sick, although I did force myself to sit out 3 days. Back at it today and while I am not a 100 percent I did ok. I ate the way I felt like eating which included ramen noodles for some reason and managed to get down to 322. Wondering if this is temporary because I was sick or will I keep it off when I feel better. We'll see. So I am 3 lbs away from a major goal of 319. Next weigh in is 4 days away. I don't see losing 3 lbs in that time,although I secretly hop...

I haven't posted in a while. ALOT has happened. Basically at the day before my weigh-in 336 the next day I was 335. So I gained 2 lbs, but Aunt Flo had been to visit. That was on March 15th. Last night March 20th I was 335. And since I usually lose a pound over night I know I am back to 334. Eating has returned to normal. No weird cravings. Working out has been a whole other story. I think that is because my schedule has been wacky so I can't work out at my usual work out time and I am trying to force myself to do it at the end of the day when I REALLY don't want to. One thing that is motivating me is my 800 minute excercise goal. I missed it last month by less than 100 min. So this month even if I only do 20 min a day I am trying to stay on goal. I am half way there so I should be ok. Posted on 3fc Eating has returned to normal. Jumped on the scale just to see and doing ok. Not an official weigh-in but I think the gain was more TOM than anything else. I seem ...

So this week I only worked out once on Monday. I think I've figured out what the problem was. I was supposed to be doing prevention fitness personal training, the weight loss track and I didn't like it. I think my mind just said well I don't like it so I see no point in doing it. I also think I just needed a break from my routine. So I skipped the whole week. Saturday I did an old WATP 2 mile and today I did Yoga Booty Ballet all the way through. I plan my workout for the following week on Sunday so I am doing 30 min of the quick fit kick boxing (more on that later) and the toning from the PF:personal training (20 min). Funny that I am doing the quick fit DVD. I bought it because I liked the kick boxing in the WALK kick (WATP) and thought i would try it with someone else. I bought quick fit and after reviewing it I just couldn't do it. So now 3-4 months later it looks like it will be challenging but doable...Nice.. Food wise. I have been eating intuitively. S...

Well this week end been a little wacky. I didn't eat anything I planned to eat. I didn't over eat and I think I made good choices all week. I only exercised once this week which I'm not entirely happy with, but I'm ok with that too. Back at it tomorrow (Saturday). So anyway. I know I haven't had the big 3-4 weight loss I had been having so I jumped on the scale. I'm down a pound( to 333) . Its nice because I haven't gained, but I would like to be firmly in the 320s by the end of the month. I have managed to stick to my lent goals with the exception of the 2 beef meals I've had. I will admit Applebees has been calling and it was rough avoiding the scallops with bacon but I'm ok. Funny who I can ignore the Ben and Jerry's and not the scallops. I wonder if it will get easier. Happy that I am not forming any new attachments with food. I do have a craving for hooter, but I think their salads (if you can call it that, more like salad dressi...

Added later: I skimmed my blog looking for something else and realized I've had the whole tastless much epiphany before (is it an epiphany if you had it before and forgot?) anyway...hopefully I won't forget this time. I wonder if I'll ever get to the point with IE where i am not learning something. Well my body went sort of on strike the last few days and I gave in to its demands. I just couldn't make myself eat another tasteless whole wheat English muffin. So I bought Cinnamon raisin ones. Yes they have more calories and yes they probably have some evil chemical in them, but they taste better and I am tired of tasteless dreck. Also I didn't eat my usual lean cuisine/Healthy choice prepackages rubber chicken. I treated myself to Indian and loved it. I have no idea who many calories I had yesterday ....probably quite alot, but I can tell today I am back in the drivers seat. I also had a donut and milk for breakfast So what have we learned boys and girls ......

Whenever I see a meal listed with more than 500 calories...I think oh wow that must be alot of food. I'm here to tell you it isn't. I had 1000 (hamburger, french fries) and a drink and I just got cookies out of the vending machine. So I am at about 1500 for the day. I will probably do over 2000, but thats ok because I know this is just a one day thing. Actually lookign forward to my mega veggie omelet tomorrow morning and trying the chicken marinade I got from 3fc and a the indian recipe from yahoo foods.