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Been a while, lots to tell

Well it has been a while since I posted. Between no internet at home and being sick just haven' t been able to get a post out. Basically Last month I gained and last the same 3 pounds last month. I did end up at 329. WOO HOO. I've been sick for about a week. A direct result of kissing my ex not boyfriend (i'll explain later).

I didn't make my 800 min goal...not even close. I came it at 602 min, so REALLY focused about making my goal this month. So much so that I was obsessing about it while I was sick, although I did force myself to sit out 3 days. Back at it today and while I am not a 100 percent I did ok. I ate the way I felt like eating which included ramen noodles for some reason and managed to get down to 322. Wondering if this is temporary because I was sick or will I keep it off when I feel better. We'll see. So I am 3 lbs away from a major goal of 319. Next weigh in is 4 days away. I don't see losing 3 lbs in that time,although I secretly hope I do. I do see losing that plus more by the end of the month. I can't even fathom it.

Also I am finally able to fit into some clothes I haven't been able to wear in the last 5-8 years. I also have the unhappy realization that when I started i was probably a soild size 30 and a 28 in stretch clothes. So I am just getting into my fitted 26/28 clothes. I do think I can get down to a 24 or 22 by my trip.

Working out is pretty ok. I think I am kinda tired of the prevention fitness. Not in the same way I can't tolerate seeing Leslie sanson, just in a I need a change, so looking for something different. Also not sure if I mentioned it or not, but way back when I started I bought 2 DVDS with skinny chicks that was way above my level. Well since i needed a change I pulled them out and I can do them again. WOO HOO.

I think that catches everything up.

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