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So today we have sensitivity training at work today.  Lunch is being served.  Which is usually sandwiches and salad and some kinda of pasta.  I could run out and get something to eat, but I am going to force myself to go and make reasonable choices.  Also because of the meeting I can't workout during lunch so I am going to have to workout at home tonight, which I hate doing.   I could just say heck with the 20 min, but I worked damn hard to make that 500 min, so lets see how this all shakes out.

Yes I am obsessing about this, but this is life and if I want to lose weight I need to learn how to deal with the surprised life throws you.

Added later
so the meeting wasn't horrible.  I took 3 sandwiches before, threw away all the bread and drank water.  After the meeting I felt like nibbling so I took 3 more and threw away the bread again.  No fruit, no sweets.  Also before the meeting my co-workers put 2 mini reese's cups on my desk and I told her no.

The sandwiches were deli meat, salamon, and some breaded chicken (ok so I was a little weak), but I got through it and I am super proud that I didn't touch the sweets or fruit.  Funny I told someone I can't have fruit (low carb) and they said wow that is too extreme...it annoyed me, dude I don't need to comments...I got this.

So next challenge is finishing my last 20 min of my monthly exercise challenge.

Also I keep silent praying the scale says 352 tomorrow...I think I might cry if it doesn't.  blah.
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