The Intuituve Eater

As always lets start with the bad so I can finish on a good note. Eating has been crap.  I went to two afterwork events, I was moderate, but there were carbs....lovely delicious carbs..... Anyway, I decided to do a fake weigh in today.  A fake weigh in is weighing in the morning AFTER I do my workout.  I was 363, so I'm probably 364 or 365.  My ankles are still swollen from my period AND I'm sure the carbs aren't helping. Next week is another round of hanging out and eating with friends. The week after that I go away for a week.  All this mean is my diet is going to blah until august.  I am going to take it one day at a time and try and make good choices. The good.  I am going on a boat ride tomorrow and since I want to be able to function and make sure I get all my works outs in I doubled up...   I did cardio fix and dirty 30.  I was sort of dreading it since of all the 21DF workouts cardio fix is the one I like the least,...

I actually wasn't intending to blog, but I think I needed to vent a little so here I am.  First the bad, my period started monday and while I haven't had a repeat of death by donut I've had a few cheats (frozen yogurt, 2 mojitos, 2 hot dogs, 1 beer) This isn't in one sitting but over the course of this week.  I didn't really overeat just ate thing I shouldn't have. I haven't weighed myself because I wasn't interested in the emotional rollarcoaster that would have been, but my ankles are currently the size of grapefruit...blah.  When Aunt flo has officially left time I'll weigh a day or so after that  The question is usually after my period if over there is a 3-5 lbs loss, but I've been cheating so there is the potential for a gain. The good..I'm sticking to the 21 day Fix.  I did a warm up and cool down I found on youtube because I was tired of the one Autumn did EVERYDAY.  That being said I'm really loving 21DF.  Next week i...

So my plan was to double up on one of the workouts so I could try them all in the first week before I start over on monday AND get a rest day in between That is the face I'm making at myself.  My legs are a lil sore from leg fix and my arms and sides are still recovering from upper fix. I did cardio fix and I jogged rather than do mountain climbers or burpees.  Then she said bonus..come on you know you want to do the bonus round....Um yeah no I really don't This is an exact recreation of my face...off went amber, no cool down, no 200 do not pass go... So I'm sure someone is reading this like you won't get the maximum effect...I don't care...one of the things I've learned if forcing myself to do the thing I hate (not just don't like) is going to lead to me avoiding them in the future and gaining the weight back.  Its a fine line.  No I didn't do mountain climbers or burpees or the bonus round (i did it yesterday), but I got up ...

First and most importantly.  I want to eat my foot. I'm pretty raveous after working out. Also last night i got home and between being wiped and it being super humid I just couldn't cook.  I had 3 slices of cheese and called it a night. I was up at 3am ...blah So the scale has moved...I don't think this is PMS, I think this is just how long it took my body to deal with the 3 day carb binge I had over the 4th of July.  Usually after a binge I don't want to see the scale shock so I give myself a few days.  Getting on everyday and not seeing ANY change was an eye opener.  I wasn't going to get on today, but I've learned I just want to see a whoosh so I don't get on, then when I finally get on I want to see a big drop.  If I don't see a big drop I'm disappointed.  Rather than go through that I got on, before my workout.  363.  I'm not happy, but I was 364 AFTER my workouts all week, so I can live with this. I've learned the lesson and re...

Its been a long time since I really loved a workout...I loved doing upper fix.  I tend to try and to total body workout because I have limited time, but this reminded me that its nice to be able to focus completely on one area. I used 8lb and 5 lb weights and pretty much stuck to the non modified version except for pushups and planks.  I got on the ground for everything else.  A nice surprise, since I've been doing pilates for 2 months the crunches and other ab work didn't kill me. Amber talks, but I'm more concerned with pushing out as many reps at my own speed than whatever she is saying. If you're reading this, I'm not a beachbody coach.  I've been checking out review to preview what's to come and I've noticed in 99% of the reviews which are usually positive the person is or wants to be a beachbody coach.  I consider that a conflict of interest, but I could be wrong. Scheduling...21 day fix is basically a straight 21 days of working out. The 7...

If I've learned anything from Jillian Michal's its if you want something you have to do the thing you don't want to do, to get what you want. I hurt my shoulder, just the muscle, but I went home monday and just turning over hurt. I left my laptop in the car and my dvd play doesn't really work I over slept. So I could have just called it a wrap today, but I got up, used my desktop which has a huge monitor and did everything but the ab workout at the end.  I have 3 days of pilates so I'm not worried about abs. Since the rest of my body was on fire my shoulder didn't seem like such a big deal, and to be honest it actually helped loosen up the muscle. Before I get into the critique I want to say overall I loved this workout.  It similar to Jillian.  There are 4 rounds.  Each round is 2 exercises done for 1 min with 20 second rest and repeat.  If that didn't make sense..You can google it. Anyway, I did everything but the Abs. My shoulder wasn...

So I gained 5 lbs...at least. Friday it was a unplaned trip to fridays then Donuts saturday , macaroni and rice saturday and grits sunday. Oh and chipotle sunday So yeah I broke every diet rule I have....that takes talent.  the other side of it is, my stomach was not happy, for as good as the food tasted the cramping and gas..just made me sad. I worked out Saturday 21 day shred day 2, but nothing over the week which isn't so bad. So yeah I didn't just fall off the wagon it ran me over, but I'm back on today...I had my usual egg whites.  I added in bread, and the goal is to stay on plan all week. This morning I was supposed to start the 21 day fix, but I left my laptop in the car and my dvd player doesn't work.  I ended up doing the beginning shred day 2 and I realized why I never really got into Jillian Michael"s I just need her to shut the F%@& up. The first time I was getting used to the exercises so I kind of ignored all of her talking.  But th...

So I finished my June workout challenge a  little early  (june 22) I did cathe's Super Cuts once I think just to stay get something in, but its been pilates and walking for most of that time. It's July, a new month, new challenge and my body was pretty much telling me get my ish together and do some sweating.   The plan was to workout tuesday, wednesday and thurday to kind of ramp up for the 4th of july holiday weekend since I would be away visiting family.  The best laid plans. I did something to my knee..or rather I redid something to my knee it comes and goes, so I did pilates, but I still need a workout.  I was going to do some harder stuff, but I wasn't interested in 45 min to an hour and I also wanted strength.  Weirdly lower body strength training has helped alot with knee pain, and I haven't really done much of it consistently.. So to the google mobile and came up with Jillian Michael's 30 day beginner shred.  I have tried 30 d...

Figuring out what works and what doesn't for weightloss is like playing with your chemistry set.  What works for one person may not work for another and things that worked months ago, may not be the same now...Its alot of trial and error.  Also sometimes it's just weird. So I have flavor cravings...It's rare I want food,  its usually I want salt or sugar or tart.  Once the craving has been satisfied I'm ok, usually I'm ok for a while. Add to this I'm a creature of habit and I have the same flavors every morning.  Breakfast is an egg white omelet with chopped broccoli, onion and cheddar cheese.....and 2 sausages...I know its alot of sodium, probably bad for me, but it hasn't broken anything and when I don't have it..I notice....Take note of that last point. So I go to get breakfast ...I left my wallet at home.  I ended up ordering from  a diner via paypal and no sausage....I eat..but for an hour I just feel like something is missing. I'm ...

So I put the air conditioner in last night and no problems getting up. My electric bill is going to be interesting at the end of the month, but its worth it. So last day of the month.  There were alot of ups and down, but my belief is this is a journey and you learn from the sucky moments just as well and the awesome ones. Last scale reading for the month was 359. What did I learn: -I can go out and have a drink. A drink, and wine is better than beer.  I will see a bump up on the scale, but as long as I go right back to eating on plan and working out it is really just a blip and not much to worry about -I do better when I bring lunch to work.   I can stay on plan without, but its will help me and my pocketbook -Being consistent yields results.  I've been doing pilates for a month and I can plank for 25 seconds. I have my knees on the ground, but hey I'll take it. -If I'm avoiding working out, change my workout.  I have been planning to do The Firm:...

That is an exact recreation of me...or my inner me.  I'm not sure what happened.  Its too early for PMS, but I have been on my on sugar binge for the last couple of days.  I am usually not much of a sweet person, but it has been an issue. Sunday I have 4 of the tiny hagen daz ice cream.  It amounts to about a scoop of ice cream when you add them all together.  Today I had another sugar craving and had two pack of cookies.  Add on to that I didn't work out. My house was hot and I turn into a big ole slug when its hot. I also didn't cook... I am currently not wining. I'm down overall for the month so I haven't done much damage, but I need to focus.  I joined the June exercise challenge on 3FC and I have one last pilates session to do.  I also didn't workout over the weekend.. I"m not winning SMH So I'll knock that out tomorrow morning Fingers crossed the craving goes away and I'll be sleep with the A/C on tonight. On the u...

So yesterday I was tired of egg white omelets so decided it was going to be cheat day.  I had 3 donuts... which is way more than I should have...so I'll need to work on that.  I avoided the pizza at a dept meeting YAYYY NSV...and I had a salad. Went out with a friend to take a spin in my new car and had a hamburger. Really none of that is really horrible except my death by donuts.  I woke up meh today.   Kinda sluggish, feeling a little bloated. It might be just the end of the week or it might have been the carbs or a combination.  We'll see, but My final weigh in for the month is Tuesday and since I am fresh off my cheat day should be smooth sailing Even though I wasn't motivated I've learned I should go more than 2 days without working out.  Also I have 2 more days of Pilates to complete my exercise challenge for the month.  I ended up doing Leslie Sansone you can do pilates.  Its short and I always end up feeling better after...

So I promised myself I wouldn't post until I was in the 350s.  this time I started in the 370s (blah)  I hit 358 this last weekend, but I waited and I haven't shot up.my final weigh in for the month is Tuesday so I should be fine.   So I usually blog fall off and then am annoyed with myself.  This time I really made myself accountable. I've been wanting to blog, but I made it a reward and feeling awesome. This is a quickie post, just happy I made it. My other reward was buying something and I chose the 21 day fix.  I'm learning I can't do the same workout over and over again or I"ll get bored and stop.  Also it was nice to buy it knowing I had earned it. Meal plan is modified slow carb and I workout in the morning 3-4 days a week.  I have a fitbit, but after the initial motivation,  I'm not a walker and it isn't something I can do long term for exercise. So yeah I'm back.  358. which isn't great, but on my way down...

I said I wouldn't post again until I was in the 350s, but I need to vent and I realize I am not a good group weightloss person. Weightloss..has been pretty ok. From Sept to Jan I just ate whatever...got up to 375.....and i've been bobing arounf the 360s due to too much hanging out and enjoyment of food (damn you oh so lovely sushi). I got focused and then hurt my knee, but ate pretty ok while I was unable to workout on my knee.  I'm at 365 as of the beginning of April. I'm waiting for my period to be over to get on the scale again. So thats the recap...now for the vent....I am in a pretty awesome FB group, but with all things you aren't going agree with everyone.  I installed myfitnesspal to help keep a lil more honest about what i'm eating and it has been a little bit of an eye opener about how much sodium I'm taking in.  Somethings like my fried egges are alil high..but I had a  steak for the first time since Feb??? (I gave up beef for lent) and it w...

So between going from a great beach vacation to 2 weeks of jury duty I've been on plan about 60%.  Weirdly I haven't gained or lost anything I think that has more to do with me doing more weight type exercises than cardio since usually I would have gained.  Anyway..I'm slowly easing back and hoping for a nice 3-4 weight loss to get me back to the 150s.  I'm tempted to try and challenge, but I think I just want to take it one day at a time. I've been helping me ex-fiancé focus a lil more.  He's on blood pressure medication and both is parents are diabetic.  So I asked him to cut out potatoes and rice, two things he really likes...we'll see if it working.  I am going to try and eat wheatena 203 times a week to work on my cholesterol. Fall is here...which mean I'm be way more into cooking now that its cooled off.  YAY I already planned to make the paleo jambalaya for lunch next week.

So I got on the scale when 1. I was about to get my period and had gained 3 lbs...I try and make it a rule not to weigh on cheat days, immediately after, right before I get my period or during.  So I have it now...and I've been on a bit of carb binge..and I haven't worked out. I'm sort of grumpy, but its the end of the summer, Labor Day weekend and I just wanted a break.  Also I know I'll be focused once summer has come to an end. The other side to this is though...While I eat the carbs and they taste good...my body isn't happy ..and so I just then move on from it.... My period has gotten alot easier to deal with it.  Its gone from..maybe 7 days to 4...days... So I was looking at my credit card statement and realizing I eat out way too much and not just for health but for my bank account I need to stop eating out so much So tomorrow rather than working out i'm going to clean my kitchen, food shop and prep for the week.  I'm only eating mon-wed, but...

LOL once I start blogging I can't stop. So I'm in the exercise groove...I've been here before..the weight is coming off.  I'm eating right, feeling good..and then...I do too much, get frustrated and binge and then quit...sigh So I started posting on 3 fat chicks again.  I felt like I need an outlet for things I was feeling without judgement and I like reading about other people struggles so I don't feel alone.  I am avoiding any challenges and any group posts.  The posts where everyone already knows everyone so you post but no one responds because they don't really know you...blah... The reality is I don't do well on challenges and it stops becoming about weight loss and feeling good and more about "winning" nothing..because there is no actual prize.  If I win yeah..but often I "lose" and feel bad and then begins a downward spiral into feeling like a failure.  Weirdly this is also the reason I never got into counting carbs or cal...

So I haven't posted in a long time..Mostly because I just didn't want to report yet another failure.  Since my last post I've switched jobs, joined NYHRC and lost 16 lbs.  I know its not a lot..but I'm definitely proud and I'm sticking to my own weight loss plan.  Official Start date was June 16th.  I'll go into more detail later, but basically a mix of Low carb and paleo.  I think a big things has been joining the gym.  Its pricey and because of this I feel obligated to get as much use as possible out of it. They have a bunch of gym in manhattan and I take their classes.  They kick my butt, but I stick it out.  When I first started going I was intimated being the only big person I ever saw..but I feel better, I pay my dues and Eff it is people don't like it. I also think I'm becoming the annoying person who loses weight..so I'm going to blog more so I stop annoying people. Life is awesome.

So I went on vacation and some how got my mojo back...ballooned up to 364 lbs which is my highest weight. I was going to try P90X, but everything I read said I wouldn't be able to do much of it.  So I downsized to 30 day shred. I am not a Jillian Michaels fan, but I wanted to push myself and I didn't want to work out for 2 hours.  I just did level 1 of 30 day shred and...I had to stop for some of it, but I feel like I did something. I think my only annoyance is the getting on the ground..back up and down again, so I did some modifications. For pushup I did wall push up.  I wasn't even doing half of one on the ground for crunches I did standing crunches and anything I felt I could do I walked in place. So I am just trying to stick to 30 days of working out...not consecutively just 30 days of working out... Back on my paleo eating... So we'll see.  I may try and join the 3 month dietbet, but we'll see. whenever I do it, it feels extreme and coming off of i...

So this week I wanted to be lower than I started, but I gained a lb....I'm not beating myself up...I went out a couple times, drank , had fried, white castle, sugary drinks..and only gained a pound...even with going out twice I think I ate mostly paleo other than that. I need to stay away from the Chinese buffet and the French pastry spot. I made chunkey Monkey muffins (first paleo recipe) and they were awesome...no frankenfood and finally have an alternative to eggs everyday. I also made cauliflower rice  I linked the recipe, but I made it two ways.. 1. baked some chicken, and then sautéed the cauliflower in that and then just sautéed some onions and the sautéed the cauliflower in that....bother were good...for me I think I need 2-4 head to last me a whole week. I made cabbage and chicken sobrose from skinny taste. lasted the whole week...and now for what I'm making this week I think Imma try paleo pancakes, bacon salomon croquette Damn fine chic...