Can't stop won't stop, Changing my motivation

Ok, so I have been working out, but not keeping track not sure why, but my eating has been horrible...complete comfort eating.

So a friend of mine $50 I would be 329 by May 1. So'll get on the scale April one and work my ass of.

I think I've become desensitized to my motivation, or discouraged. will all the ups and downs the scale isn't the motivation it once was.

So we'll see how this works

so warm up and strength big cut to weight loss
jari love, squat/lunge,bent leg deadlift and bicep curl, strangleg deadlife, overhead press.

I'll calculate the min later.

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