The Intuituve Eater

So I got on the scale when 1. I was about to get my period and had gained 3 lbs...I try and make it a rule not to weigh on cheat days, immediately after, right before I get my period or during.  So I have it now...and I've been on a bit of carb binge..and I haven't worked out. I'm sort of grumpy, but its the end of the summer, Labor Day weekend and I just wanted a break.  Also I know I'll be focused once summer has come to an end. The other side to this is though...While I eat the carbs and they taste good...my body isn't happy ..and so I just then move on from it.... My period has gotten alot easier to deal with it.  Its gone from..maybe 7 days to 4...days... So I was looking at my credit card statement and realizing I eat out way too much and not just for health but for my bank account I need to stop eating out so much So tomorrow rather than working out i'm going to clean my kitchen, food shop and prep for the week.  I'm only eating mon-wed, but...

LOL once I start blogging I can't stop. So I'm in the exercise groove...I've been here before..the weight is coming off.  I'm eating right, feeling good..and then...I do too much, get frustrated and binge and then quit...sigh So I started posting on 3 fat chicks again.  I felt like I need an outlet for things I was feeling without judgement and I like reading about other people struggles so I don't feel alone.  I am avoiding any challenges and any group posts.  The posts where everyone already knows everyone so you post but no one responds because they don't really know you...blah... The reality is I don't do well on challenges and it stops becoming about weight loss and feeling good and more about "winning" nothing..because there is no actual prize.  If I win yeah..but often I "lose" and feel bad and then begins a downward spiral into feeling like a failure.  Weirdly this is also the reason I never got into counting carbs or cal...

So I haven't posted in a long time..Mostly because I just didn't want to report yet another failure.  Since my last post I've switched jobs, joined NYHRC and lost 16 lbs.  I know its not a lot..but I'm definitely proud and I'm sticking to my own weight loss plan.  Official Start date was June 16th.  I'll go into more detail later, but basically a mix of Low carb and paleo.  I think a big things has been joining the gym.  Its pricey and because of this I feel obligated to get as much use as possible out of it. They have a bunch of gym in manhattan and I take their classes.  They kick my butt, but I stick it out.  When I first started going I was intimated being the only big person I ever saw..but I feel better, I pay my dues and Eff it is people don't like it. I also think I'm becoming the annoying person who loses weight..so I'm going to blog more so I stop annoying people. Life is awesome.